心梦

我需要对我自己好一点

2011-10-26T04:52:00.000-07:00

我有个很不好的习惯，就是要身边所有的人开心。

看似个很好的事，但是为什么我会说是坏习惯，是因为我常常会为了达到这目的而伤害我自己。

我都会把别人的感受，思想放在我之前。

喜欢一个人，我会因为怕让他知道造成困扰而选择不说或是否认，假装没事继续做好朋友。

被人当笑点，我常常会一同笑着闹着、不自觉中，我伤了我的自尊自信，我没发现，知道时以不知道要从何找回自信。

吵架不开心时，我总是会为对方找无数个理由为何他会有那样的想法而原谅他，甚至觉得是自己的错。

难过时，因为觉得会影响他人而一切往肚子里吞，吞到独自一人时，才让一切从泪水中离开我身体。

但是，我真的不知道要怎么改掉这些，因为没有这些就不是我了。

还是我痛就好吧。

久违了

2011-10-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

经典的情歌对唱，虽然那MTV似乎有点旧，又有点烂，但是歌词却是如此的真实。

我對你有一點動心　不知結果是悲傷還是喜

有那麼一點點動心　一點點遲疑　害怕愛過以後還要失去

对啊！真的怕，怕跌倒，怕受伤，又怕寂寞。矛盾！

以下陈晓东，梁咏琪版：

寂寞寂寞就好

2011-08-29T10:17:00.000-07:00

想写些什么，又不知道要写些什么。看着可爱的小宝贝一天天的长大，感觉老了。老得已经不知道自己渐渐会将自己摆放在什么位置。人老了，要的已经渐渐不同，越来越难看到或清楚知道自己要的是什么。

其实，我真的不是什么能干的女强人，我也不是一味追求名牌的拜金一族，这更让我无法帮自己定位。因为，单身的都是把钱砸在自己身上。已婚，都是朴素的将一切奉献给家庭、孩子。我，既不想砸钱买名牌，也无能建筑属于自己的家，唯一想做的，能做的，是旅游。

Bintan是第一站，下来是台湾。很兴奋，很向往。

好无厘头的一次投稿，上下毫无连接，不知道，就让这成个流水账吧。不想用脑。不想。。想。。

深思 ---- Marina Barrage

2011-07-24T00:10:00.001-07:00

最近，身边的好友一一都找到了属于他们的幸福，讲真的是非常为他们感到开心，真心祝福。

可是，有些曾经是非常要好的朋友，也因为同样的原因，不再如同往常一样的亲切了。

我开始回想，当初当我拥有幸福的时候，我是否有冷落任何一个非常要好的朋友，如果我曾是那样的一个人，对不起。因为，感觉真的很不好，似乎开始隔了一层纱，那似乎会渐渐变成一堵墙的纱。曾经无所不聊的我们，曾几何时成了敷衍回答的对话。传简讯也一点劲儿都没有。在我猛传一堆故事给你后，回来的只是十根手指数的玩的回字，看了冷了。

人老了，渐渐发现，友情也是一样需要两个人的努力才能一直坚固到老。一个人的付出会累的。

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Went Marina Barrage YESTERDAY!! Woots!! so much fun and laughter, we flying the kite SO SO HIGH and it was AMAZING!! Seriously though it seems quite a boring activity but it is ADDICTIVE come on~~ when u see your kite high up in the sky, it is an achievement!! Kar Sng and I working hand in hand keeping the kite high high in the sky. hehehee.. Nice chilling afternoon with My dear Kar Sng, Kar Sng-in-law, Bling and DINO together under the sun feeling so much of a FAMILY DAY!!! love it!!! Waiting for Kar Sng to upload her photos!!!

痛，有情、友情。

2011-07-14T07:08:00.000-07:00

真的，感觉非常不好。可能是我们一味的开玩笑，让她感到不舒服，但是玩笑中，我们是满满的祝福你看到吗？有些时候，我们也只不过自嘲，但是你却如此敏感，我们能说什么？对，我生气了，可能是第一次，我真的不理解你突如其来的泼冷水，不理解你字字如针刺痛的原因。看开点，放轻松点，又那么难吗？

真的不知道要说些什么～气！！！！！气的不是觉得你错，而是气你误会我们，气你那么对待一群守护在你身边的我们。气！！！！！

面具

2011-02-26T18:06:00.000-08:00

有人说我这儿安静了许久，不知是好事还是坏事，因为我似乎都是在伤心、失落的时候才会来记下心中的感慨。其实也不然嘛～～还是有开心事件记载的好吗？

最近，有点感慨。以往总觉得同事也能是朋友啊～为什么同事就只能是同事，要划分得那么清楚呢？后来才发现，其实有时很难不划分，而且人们的面具是从这时候开始戴上的。为了自保，与所有人保持良好关系，大家都努力的与大家都好。有时我也不知道我应该同流合污，还是把持自己的见解以自己的方式面对。好挣扎。还好，我不是孤军作战，所以也还过得开心。

人啊～到了一个年龄，会开始怀旧，怕孤独。我。。。。。。老了啦！！！我也开始有这样的感触。天啊～真是“未老先衰”也不知道为什么，有时就真的觉得好孤独！！但是，有没有精力去和年轻人挤，也对自己毫无自信，没能再自信的到处结交朋友。我，真是两百旁美女了啦！！！真的不知道要从那里瘦起，也不知道行不行。痛苦～～～

神圣一天，结束了。

2011-01-02T08:36:00.000-08:00

在圣诞节那天，一切童话般的事件结束了。你说我们已经到了互相不了解对方所要的与需求的。我无心再强求，因此结束了。我对自己的冷静有点吓到。可能已经老了，要的不是所谓轰轰烈烈的爱情，或是充满戏剧性的爱情，要的只是简简单单的爱，互相照顾，互相依赖。既然你已经不是我的依靠，我也只能放手。做不成情人，还能是朋友。

2010年的最后一晚，你发了一封简讯，说些祝福的话语，我看了，有点欣慰，我们没有像我之前的那个，连朋友都没的做。我从那一秒，把你列为朋友。轻松的回了个谢谢，希望你也能玩得开心。我对自己的豁达感到自豪。

今天，你又传来一封简讯。你说你醉了，说些无厘头的话，说我们是否有机会从新来过，之前真的是很大的误会。看了，有点心动。我说，别喝太多，伤身。你说谢谢你回避了我的问题。我说我希望我们能在你清醒时才谈那话题。你说没关系。你又在简讯里给我脸色看。我不喜欢。我又长篇大论的说起我对你的期望。你还是不懂我的用心。说自己笨，自己蠢。就算被车撞死也没有我的事。我又是长篇大论的想要和你将道理。你又提起一同工作是个错误，说都是为了照顾我才做那样的选择。说都是因为在那里做，才会这样错。我又被你搞糊涂了。不明白，不了解。我再问，你便恼羞成怒，又不里我了。不明白。你波动了我的心，却拒绝我进入你的世界。我们真的有沟通上的问题，你也不想面对，这样，哪还有可能继续呢？

活在不知什么之中，等待。

2010-12-07T08:01:00.000-08:00

那天，他打来了。好开心，好痛心。

知道了事实，害怕再度失去联络。

期待见面，结果还是没有。

一而再的失望。

等待会落空吗？

不是肯定他忘记我，只怕这会是结果。。。

他打给我了！！！

2010-12-05T05:34:00.000-08:00

终于，终于有了他的消息。他听起来好累好累。

本以为能好好的和他谈谈，但我穷得连吃饭都要三思了，怎么可能晚上和他见面呢？

不知道为什么，他不愿意通电话说。

他可能是很累了，心情不好吧。

希望，希望我们又能好好得谈，开心地聊。

我真的希望我们会又像以前一样开心。

爱情证书，希望能看见

2010-12-05T04:11:00.000-08:00

寂寞當然有一點你不在我身邊
總是特別想念你的臉
距離是一份考卷

測量相愛的誓言最後會不會實現

我們為愛還在學學溝通的語言
學著諒解學著不流淚
等到我們學會飛

飛越黑夜和考驗

日子就要從孤單裡畢業

我們用多一點點的辛苦

來交換多一點點的幸福

就算幸福還有一段路

等我們學會忍耐和付出
這愛情一定會有張證書

證明從此不孤獨

给你的信

2010-12-04T08:22:00.000-08:00

想必这也是会被空气接受了。

你知道吗？我真的很想你。等待是痛苦的。

好多事在同一个时间发生。

你知道吗？

在世界的一个角落，有个傻傻的女孩一直在等你。

虽然只有两天没有任何消息，但是对她却是难熬的两天。

一切的甜蜜，在没有预告的情况下突然中断。

这样，其实比暴风雨后的宁静还痛。

那女孩没有要干涉你面对未来的做法，想法。

只想知道你还在。还在她的世界里。

这女孩装坚强，笑脸面对世界，但却活在黑暗中。

每当一天又要过去时，她的泪又夺眶而出。

你知道吗？

那个傻女孩每天看着电话发呆，为的只是希望能看到你的名字出现在电话的屏面上而已。

你为什么就这样销声匿迹。。。为什么？

可以告诉我吗？

心烦

2010-12-03T05:22:00.000-08:00

我能谅解，不能理解。

我要你在，不是钱财。

我很想你，你在哪里？

站在门外，只希望看到你。

但是，你呢？

也一样吗？

有再想我吗？

会想回头看看我吗？

难道你不知道，有些时候时间一过，什么都没有了吗？

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今天有个很有心、有钱的人，他似乎在用钱来引诱我。他说他等了我三年。有点信，有点怀疑。我不曾认为自己有那样的魅力，能让人在45分钟内爱我爱得那样深。看似痴情汉，但要的却有些肤浅。。。他说等了我三年，只要跟着他的脚步，一切会顺利进行。但是，他是用跳的，不是走的。甜言蜜语，好恐怖。后来，怀疑是他找人试探我。其实，还挺希望是这样的，至少觉得他还在乎我。我这里好冷，你呢？

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忙、盲、茫

2010-11-30T06:27:00.000-08:00

最近好忙啊！！！太多事情发生了。

忙

首先，开心的，姐姐结婚了！恭喜。真的希望你们能从中成长，互相扶持，白头到老。。。虽然我们大家都很忙，但是还算开心。大家都到我家来帮忙，一起不够睡，一起打扫，一起做很多事，真的感到亲情的重要。感觉真的是很爽。家里热热闹闹的，有老的、小的，很开心。身为伴娘的我，总是在他们背后走着，看着他们的背影，真的衷心希望姐姐能幸福，一直到老。（PS:虽然我知道这里我很丑！但是唯一一张全家福啦～～～）

盲

再来，我辞职了。许多人都指指点点，不是以为是因为他，就是以为我沉不住气，事实真的是我累了。他们给予的，真的是少之又少，要的却是全力以赴。说出感受，却被他们的“教育”压制，说的是富丽堂皇，做的却只是这样。。。没有计划似的走一步看一步。有点受骗的感觉，盲目的相信了你们所说的一切。你们的工作，是富太太，不需要高薪的人做的，不是我这穷人家做的。当我提出辞职后，你们的“冷”更让我觉得我所做的真的是多余的。可能行销是自私人们的工作吧～我，做不来。

茫

因为之前一起工作，大家总腻在一起。虽然不能公然的露出情侣的感觉，却能天天见面。很开心。突然，大家离职了。他受到父母的压力，我也成了他其中的压力。因为，他妈妈认为他意气用事，为了我而离职。成天对他没好脸色。我也不知道是不是因为这样，他有点搞失踪。有了距离。说好听些，有了更多自己的空间，但我却感到有距离。能碰面时，我总是会忘了所有的不满，不安，紧紧抱着他说我爱你，当不见时，就会胡思乱想。爱情，难搞。婚姻，赌注。

我一向很向往恋爱、婚姻、家庭，现在不知道是看太多、听太多还是怎么了，有点累，有点怕。那种又爱又恨又怕的感觉，不好受。“信任”是个双刃刀，一边是维持美满婚姻的因素，另一边也是让人有借口做出出轨的事。。。难～～

压力

2010-11-22T09:50:00.000-08:00

人的成长必定有压力伴随，有些是好的，有些是令人喘不过气的。

最近的压力好大喔～一边想要好好的有份安定的工作，一边。。。也不知道从何说起。

今天，睡不着。

也不知道是为了什么，心里忐忑不安的。好辛苦，累了、夜了、不会睡。。。

好多东西要想，似乎有想不完的东西，但又似乎什么都没在想。可能是想不出个所以然吧～所以会觉得没有在想，放空。。。

就连在这里，也似乎有一句没一句的打着，打什么？不知道，为什么要打这一串的字，不晓得。

天啊～～～

好烦！！！！烦死了！！！！！！

未来，我要抓着你！

2010-11-08T19:36:00.000-08:00

先离题一下下～～天啊！！看到朋友们出门的近照～～好遥远喔！！心里真是酸酸的～我真的、真的要回我的自由！！

其实也不晓得是我要求太高，还是梦想太高，又或是运气太好？不知道，总是有人在我身边说：“嘿！你不只是这样的料啊！我期待看你成材成器！”然后就一股脑的开导我，为我指路，还有人激我、推我，间接逼我计划我的未来，将梦想草稿出来，让梦想成为事实。

过程感觉不好，因为不难会被人用不友善的语气讲。可是，也没伤痕，反而能成材，所以我要加油！我想快速往上，40就能高枕无忧。我要成为狂人，做些意想不到的事。我要尝试，人人畏惧的事。这样我才能是少数人。。。成功的人～～～

成长·挣扎

2010-10-28T19:53:00.000-07:00

有人啊～超好笑的，在部落格上提说某人没新消息，没提名没提姓，结果还是跑来说：“嘿！我提到的那个人是你啦！”

好吧～今天就写一些近况吧～～

上一回写也不知道是几时了，似乎很忙，但不知道自己在忙些什么。工作，睡觉，就连和朋友的聚会，也都是我的休息时间。一天一个小时，让他们大老远跑来陪我吃饭，还真是过意不去。但是，还能怎样呢？刚开始觉得我在这公司似乎渐渐没意思，大老板又开口了，将担子一点一点的挪向我这里。他看到了问题，他发现了，他当着我的面提出来了。感觉没给小老板面子，但是也不是没有道理，因为是我想说但说不出口的。似乎还有留下来的理由，过了年再想吧。

感情？没差，经过了些许事情，对男人啊，真是难有信心。最近来了个新人，不是我们公司的，只是一同工作的。怪怪的，总是爱提他的名字。观察观察，似乎很像是我和他常闹在一起玩得很开心，让她对他很有好感。那天，我提出我对这女生的不舒服，提过了头吧，自己知道不是他的错，却一直往他身上泼水，结果闹得不欢。。。。没散啦～～我们太在乎彼此了～～

所以，现在可说是官场得意，情场也顺心吧～～～

感谢上帝仍然对我宠爱有加～～～～～～～等等，上帝啊～多一个要求行吗？工资再加一点嘛～～～＝P

失去心中的火

2010-08-23T07:22:00.000-07:00

一开始因为新鲜，好奇所以充满期待的努力工作。

后来因为有他，常常逗我笑、一起闹，开开心心的工作。

现在，人手突然短缺，来不及找人代替，大家都忙的有点累了。

真的，不容易，心中那把炽热的火已经渐渐越来越渺小。。。

开口说“累了。”

自己范围内的事又没能做的很好，所以有点灰心，有点沮丧。

突然蒙起了“若当初我就去教书，钱也多，这类烦恼也没有，还能又休假，多好。。。”

一年，若一年内我的工作还是没有改变或是有改变的趋向，我应该会离开。。。

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他身边来了一个美女临工！！！！没自信的我又要开始胡思乱想了啦～～～我好想去拍拖啦！大家都为了工作，存钱与将来烦恼。。。烦啊！

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今天突然收到一封简讯，以前要好的朋友兼同学有小BABY了。

先是吓到，再来想想是与预计的是一样的发生，最后有点失落。

吓到是因为消息突然。

与预计的一样是因为她结婚的时候也是这样。

失落，因为感觉上我们成了同学了、不像是朋友了。因为她连生了，我们都不知道。

想到这里，兴奋都不知道在哪里了。。。。

人生·工作·想

2010-08-21T20:05:00.000-07:00

人生

最近人生少了许多乐趣，朋友因为要当兵而离职了，另一个又因为人手短缺被调走了，能炒热气氛的都离开了，剩下我们又不至于是些三姑六婆在哪里东家长来西家短，也不是趣味多多的人，所以没什么亮点。个人的生活似乎除了工作也没太多其余的东西。所以要把工作与人生分开还有些难呢。。

工作

人手突然短缺，人事调动得厉害，才进来公司短短不到三个月得我，有点适应不过来。加上华人得鬼节，搞得我真的对自己的能力有点质疑。人少了，自然我们都得多做。想想，在人手足够之前，想必我自己是无法让自己有放假的机会了吧。。。

想

有点累，希望能放个大假与他去享受一下人生。但，我们这些穷光蛋，就算有时间也只是发呆罢了～所以还是趁年轻拼了吧！！！！

～～～生命中的一点光～～～

近来还好～

2010-08-10T08:14:00.000-07:00

近来还好，过得虽然是匆匆忙忙，但是还是学了很多。脚步有点慢，因为还不想长大吧。。。前阵子真的很痛苦，与某人沟通上超级有问题，不知道怎样才能改善，很苦恼。但是，那天我很努力的试着了解他，也试着让他看到我角度上看到的事，我以为我失败了。怎知道，第二天，他释怀许多的出现在我面前，回复开朗个性的他，看了还抱有些许怀疑。听了听，观察了些些，他有些变了。我很感动，真的。希望这会持久。。我对他有信心！

所以，问题解决了，我也开心了～＝）

累

2010-08-01T07:42:00.000-07:00

嘻嘻哈哈过着每一天，但是都是为工作打转。希望能忘记所有的烦恼，好好的过一天，但是人总是贪心的，有那么一天，就想要第二天。。。有休息的时间，没钱，也只能赖在床上发呆，还能怎样呢？一年！我只有一年的时间去拼。所有债务还清后，就是我自己的人生。期待。。。。

发霉了！！！

2010-07-20T08:47:00.000-07:00

对呀，我这部落格真的是发霉了～忙啊！！喘气的时间都没有了，还是得追！！！

步入生活的另一阶段真是不容易，社会复杂，也有很多得做的事。停顿就是退步，所以只有不断的往前冲啊～～～

兜兜转转，很快的，工作了一个月了。老板今天问我，一个月的感想，让我突然想起4年前刚要面对考试时那种茫然。当时，碎碎念的一直说还不知道在上什么课，就考试了。现在，我却不能那么说了。而是要在更短的时间内清楚自己在做什么，而且那“考试”是我事业的前程、我的未来的去向～

做了许多别人盼也盼不到的事，但我似乎还是不够用心。要更努力了！！！

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下个星期毕业了！！好久不见的同学们都能再次见面～好兴奋喔！希望那不会是我们最后一次见面吧～不知道大家现在都在做些什么～

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我们要半年了，时间真的过得很快。第一次大吵架发生了。我们都太火爆了一些，大家都说了伤人的话，刺痛了对方。冷静下来后，再见到对方又有种时隔多年的感觉（虽然也只是半天没见＝P ），超期待见面的。怎知那老奸巨猾的人，尽然最后一秒骗我，站在门口打电话给我，冷冷的说他累了，不来了。天啊，我那是刹那间眼泪都快飚出来了啦！他这才从背后抱了抱我，亲了一下。真是转头就不理他，然后又很快的回过头来。打了他几下，又紧紧的抱着他，怕失去现在的一切。

其实不是男人或女人难理解，只是我们两性想法不同，不能完全明白彼此的感受。所以，才会不谅解。冷静想想，也不过如此。。。看开点吧～

200th Post~

2010-06-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

Right.. been working for 2wks le.. wow.. time flies.. Very fast wor... from know nothing to trying to know everything.... Not easy.

1st wk

Struggling to know what to do what to know how to make everything better. I feel so much like in a super crash course that I can't breathe, everything seems easier to be said than done. At a point i just collapsed and cry FOR NOTHING~ yeah... then after that picked up myself and strive again.

2nd wk

More on track and feeling easier to do. But service line is really not that easy. At times when u really dont feel like talking or smiling u still have to do it when u are serving. So.. yeah.. what to do...

3rd wk

This wk... right.. gg more smoothly and though more are expected of me but all I can say is I am trying my best to do what I can and working hard for the future. =)

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我们这阵子似乎踏出甜蜜期，

不是不再甜蜜，只是开始看见我们的不同之处。

有许多事我是抱有很多的希望很拼命的想往未来看

你却似乎是受尽所有创伤无力奋斗。

我希望我能感染你些许的斗志，

为我们的未来冲刺。。。

工作的第一天

2010-06-07T18:45:00.001-07:00

我做工了！！！终于不是无业游民了不然总是在无所事事有没有钱花，真的是人生一大痛苦。

昨天是第一天，有好多东西要学喔～真的不容易。还好同事与上司感觉上都很和蔼可亲，大家都说说笑笑，很快一天就过了。有一种“欢迎来到成人的世界”的感觉。在短时间内，我得学好所有售卖的事物，还得学好如何调解人际关系，还得学着很好的和顾客打好关系，还有更了解所有品牌特征、节日或场合搭配。。。还。。好多好多好多喔～真的不容易，接下来的一年内，我应该会很忙，但也一定会很有成就感。我可以的！！加油！！！

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下个星期就是第四个月了！！

很期待，也很害怕。

我们的感情应该开始迈入考验了吧～

也投入社会的我，能还如以往一样和他甜蜜的过着每一天吗？

事事难料，但我会努力细心经营的，只要你也一样努力，我们行的～

日子

2010-05-28T07:57:00.000-07:00

日子一天天的过着，我终于毕业了。踏入成人世界的我，还有点不知所措。有时听着大人们的工作故事，不知道是我还很单纯，还是真的是她们想太多，我也会被同样的问题困扰吗？我不知道，我得面对了才知道。沉淀心情，本想为梦想疯玩了才踏入我的人生，但是命运不允许我这样的任性。安分的找份工作，赚钱、储蓄后，梦想才会更接近。就如好友说过，我得先了解什么我必须马上做的事，我们穷人家没有有钱人所拥有的“闲”，我们得努力奋斗才能看见梦想。

最近也约了几个朋友碰面、吃饭、聊天，大家都又了不同的韵味了。放空的望向远方，神情都有着不同的期望；有的能看到自己成功成就；有的看到自己成家立业；有的看到自己享受人生，大家都在“空”里填上了自己想看到的未来。

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今天本来能同他一起看电影，但是因为穷人家的心酸，没去。

有点失望，因为好久没有和他一起看电影了。许多想看的电影，他都是和他的“酷儿”兄弟一起看。他从电话的另一端听出了我的失落，不想让他又失去看电影的机会，于是传了个简讯说我明天也可能和另一个朋友去看同一部电影，所以没关系。以下便是他的回答：

“friend? Guy or gal? Dunno y nowadays I can get that little jealous feeling when u gg to meet guy frenz... Maybe I deeply in love with u le...”

乍看之下，甜甜的。后来想一想，那他以前都没在爱我吗？我险得比他快比他深咯？？爱情不能比较也不能衡量，可是悲伤过的我，也会担心爱的越深伤的越深啊～～～我的回复如下：

"Sounds like you dont really love me at the start. haha. And also sounds like u 1st time in ur life know what is jealous."

he replied:

"I do love u from the start, but loving u is not quite like loving other gals i had.. The feeling is totally diff from the rest... And abt the jealousy part, ya its true.. Till now"

Wooohoooo~~~ 飞上了天啊～～～我可是第一个让浪子能回头看的人？？太开心了～～一百多天的日子里，我真的很幸福～～～再多两个星期就四个月了！！！＝）

Job Hunt~~

2010-05-12T20:16:00.000-07:00

After I'm back from KL I went for some soul searching session.

Anyway, then was so occupied that I have so many things to do yet so little time.

Now busy job hunting. Really wish to get a job soon. SO BROKE!

Came across a DJ course. 5days course but cost near to 600bucks.

Super expensive yet if I were to be outstanding then I can get my dream job!! DJ!!!

But.. guess... i really dont have the money to go and risk la huh...

Either I go for the DJ hunt.. which i guess Thousands of ppl will go... or I will just find a normal job...

Been sending out resumes and stuff... yet to have any calls to ask me for interview.. haiz.. M i that lousy??? Sian... So now just rot my way lor... Lucky have a part time job if not i will DIE... Then again.. that part time job really eats up my time for some other involvement namely my youth group. Feel so bad about it... Been MIA for a month or 2 le.. haiz.. But.. I need money.. so no choice...

Pray that I will get a job REAL soon so that i will be back again!!!

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不知不觉明天就过了第三个月了！！超开心的。

你常常很努力的让我笑，逗我玩。真的很开心。

虽然因为曾经的挫折让我不敢想未来，

但是还是不自觉的会想到我们以后的事。

希望能一直这样走下去。。。

随性创作

2010-05-12T20:08:00.000-07:00

《矛盾》

玩乐疯狂过一天，安详神圣也一天。

不沾尘染心不虚，毫无贡献心不轻。

一天过了又一天，如何度过有何别？

思想成熟自保护，心性不熟责任负。

黑白之间常徘徊，灰色地带走不来。

彩色人生合成白，灰色不就全色在。

一面镜子两个人，哪个能够真成仁？

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KL trip 010510 to 040510

2010-05-04T18:45:00.000-07:00

Alright, the most budget overseas trip!!! 4days 3nights in KL and Dear dear and I only spent $400 Sing Dollar~~ Wow.. Amazing!!!! and that included Transport and Hotel stay. Woohoo~~ Had great fun there though the weather seems to be much hotter than Singapore but is my first trip out there and so is really a WOnderful experience!

Day 1

Met up with Kar Sng and KSIL at her house and KSIL's colleague Javier sent us over to airport~ As it was my 1st time taking a plane, i was SUPER DUPER excited!!!! I talk and talk all the way non stop saying how excited i was~

When we reach KL had little hiccups as we din print out the 2nd page of the itinerary, hence we got to queue up at some counter where only 2 are open to service with a long queue. Waiting for at least 20min to half an hour before we could move off to the bus and best part, the bus drive nv check that piece of paper. =.=|||

Then the bus sent us to KL central (KL Sentral) where we could change to train to Chow Kit where our hotel is located. We took the train down to Dang Wangi where we can change to monorail at Bukit Nanas station. Then to our SURPRISE, the monorail is down. So we have to take cab to the hotel. Up in a cab where meter dont run, we were OVERCHARGED yet tot the uncle very nice. Kar Sng's cab only cost RM9 plus, ours is RM15. Sian...

Up in the hotel we were quite disappointed because the hotel is way different from the Picture shown. Brisdale Hotel is NO NO for stay. Only cheap but no good~~~ Then we couldnt book how many days online so we tot we could just let them know at the counter. HAHA.. They say 4th fully booked. Till we got so fed up and start making noise, then they say upon full payment they can extend it for us. WTH... $_$ isn't it?

After a fast check in and throwing of bags into the room, we head off to Bukit Bintang where we have our lunch and SHOPPING STARTS and BB Plaza/Sungei Wang. Actually to me it just feels like another fareast plaza but 3times bigger? hahaa.. stuff there are cheap but not as nice as i tot it will be. One whole day and i couldn't find anything to buy. I ended up with a bikini bra that i wanted to get for so long le~

Then Bling got excited seeing A&W which Singapore used to have but now EXTINCT. so we went there for root beer float after some time in the SUN. Oh mister sun sun mister golden sun have some mercy for us~~~~

Next they went for dinner at those road side stalls and they had a feast man~~~ That marks the end of day 1 at almost 12am back in the room to bath and SLEEP.

Day 2

Rise and Shine at 9am planning to meet 930am at the hotel's breakfast ball room. Then that breakfast just turn them off and even the drinks cannot make it. So we made it a fast one and head out to Mid Valley Mega Mall... Monorail down to KL Central then change to another train. The weather was so hot!!! Mega Mall is indeed MEGA. Went to Secret Recipe and is same price at different Currency!!! The place is realy BIG, But is more ups.. so things there also at normal rate. I found a nice long sleeve cotton wear at RM27 at FOS. Tried, NIce and In my Bag. hehee...

Then we head to Petaling Street at Pasar Sini where it looks EXACTLY like chinatown in Singapore. A place where u can BARGAIN all the way. Didn't really stay long there as all they have there are the imitations of branded goods.

After which we head off to Berjaya Times Square where it is like 10 levels of shopping places??? Food court at level 10?? Scary right??? wahahhaa...but the things there more or less the same. Had some food and went off. Kar Sng and all went to the roadside stall somewhere near to eat Lok Lok which is sticks of food that they boil it or deep fry it with the sauce provided just EAT. Looks interesting and should be nice to eat in cold weather.

After dinner wanted to go to pub to see see look look, don't look fantastic and equally expensive like Singapore. They bought some beer and munchy stuff back to hotel to drink n chill and played GAMES. So fun!!!

Day 3

Suppose to start at 830am cause we have to reach KL Central by 10am to catch the bus up to Genting, 2 gals were so tired changed the timing to 11 and I DONT KNOW lousy KSIL nv tell me!!! sian.. so woke up early the nuah back again.

Reach KL central at about 12 and we only have 3pm bus ticket. THough many taxi tried to persuade us to take cab but it is really way too expensive compare to bus, so we took bus instead. Nuah in KL central till 3pm in coffee bean where Bling and KSIL took the chocolate poweder and did experiments there to make their perfect drink. So funny!!!

Then head up to Genting and took Cable car Up. SO EXCITING!! hahahaa... Scary at first coz of the side i was sitting at but gradually felt the FUN! heheee... KSIL was so excited in the cable car climb here and there to take photo~~~

Reached Genting went to take a look at the casino, look around then went to the indoor theme park area to have dinner. Soon without knowing, it is 8plus pm and we head off to see if there are still bus available. We able to catch the last bus at 9pm and down back to Titiwangsa and monorail back to hotel.

Day 4

Got to check out before 12noon, so we decided to have ample time to slowly rot around and head to KL LCCT. Therefore, we left the hotel at 10am and head off to KLCC. Is like KL suntec lor... Everything looks expensive so I din really shop around. Moreover dear dear not feeling that well in the stomach. So we just park ourselves at starbucks and nuah....

Till around 5pm we head back to KL central and changed to SKY Bus back to KL LCCT. 7.15pm we reached and checked in our luggage. That almost marked the end of the 4days trip. So looked forward to it and now it is in memories.

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Had a GREAT time there though lots of walking and train taking but with FUN people there is FUN! Really love travelling and I make sure i get a good shoes next time to support my legs. Cause my feet now still aching!!! =P

气！！！

2010-04-27T04:08:00.000-07:00

Right.. this will be in english. why? I realise i can only scold ppl in english. Chinese to me is too nice a language to be used to do any post when I am super duper angry.

Alright, just dont understand why there can be ppl who promise to return then in the end claim that the person who end him the money promise to clear the debt herself. Alright. that ger is stupid and she knows it already yet she trust that man till this very moment that he is EGO enough to actually return the Money one day when he can. YET to her surprise, he is now leading a good life gg overseas as often as 3times a yr and living in PEACE!! oh great!! How can someone be so so so thick skin and not feel how others suffer?? HE is working and trying to climb up for a better job and HERE she is SUFFERING with debts, studies and still got to NON-STOP do part time and giving tuition JUST to earn the money to pay the debt. YEs the debt is still not CLEARED. I really thank the person who give me so much time to return the money and really thank her alot for trusting in me to return the money. Is really not a good feeling to owe money and live on at the same time. Right. I know everyone will want to do something good to pamper themselves even when in debt BUT HELLO one trip AFTER another. Air ticket for free ar? Whatever, I believe he has more debt now then ever and he will continue to slog just to chase his debt. ALL the best!

《黑白配》

2010-04-26T02:04:00.000-07:00

这应该是属于我们得歌吧～

那天当我听到这首歌时便有了这样得想法，

而你也在同一天指着我们得相叠手说：“Hey.. black and white"

某个程度上算是心灵相通吧～

无论肤色、背景、人生经历，我们都是黑白配。

这样得搭配，创造了更多得色彩。

谢谢你～＝）

看清楚

2010-04-24T19:57:00.000-07:00

渐渐的清楚一个人，了解了过去，我竟然能冷静的面对，而且淡淡的接受。真的是我吗？可能我真的不一样了。看来，我已经学会了将过去与现在甚至未来划清了界限。活在当下成了我的人生哲理。

人事人事，有人就会有事。如果大家能够单纯些，世界真的能太平的。互相捅彼此能让你得到些什么呢？人缘？金钱？名利？地位？其实，一切换来的只是孤独。有了一切想要得到的荣耀，却没人和你分享，这样也能开心吗？体谅，分享才能走更远的路吧～

人，其实不管在怎样的环境下，黑道也好、商场也好、圣地都好，若是无法把自己放下，抽离的看待身边所发生的一切，勾心斗角惹上一身的麻烦，不管去到哪里，一样是恶性循环的走下去的。

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我能接受，也很高兴，我们没有秘密。

坦白是应该的，也是最难的，

但至少到目前为止，我们都做到了。

甜蜜的滋味

2010-04-23T20:01:00.000-07:00

不是来炫耀我的甜蜜，只是想分享我的甜蜜。

真的不知道爱情原来是这么一回事。一直以为一定要轰轰烈烈，大吵大闹分分合合才是一场伟大的世纪恋情。以为付出一切，不求回报，忍受一切的痛苦，换来他的微笑就是伟大的世纪情人。到头来，弄得自己焦头烂额，人不像人、鬼不像鬼，就算死了到地府，我看也会吓到阎罗王吧！

最近听了黄小琥的《没那么简单》超级触碰到了我的心。

自从分手后的心情：

没那麼简单就能找到聊得来的伴尤其是在看过了那麼多的背叛总是不安只好强悍谁谋杀了我的浪漫

分手一年后的心情：

没那麼简单就能去爱别的全不看变得实际也许好也许坏各一半不爱孤单一久也习惯不用担心谁也不用被谁管

分手两年后的心情：

感觉快乐就忙东忙西感觉累了就放空自己别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定不想拥有太多情绪一杯红酒配在周末晚上关上了手机舒服窝在沙发裡

相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气

过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平（跟着我一辈子的心情）

幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人著迷

什麼都不懂的年纪曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经

想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

想念，没有了。动心不可能了。因为太模糊了。时间冲淡了一切。回想起他曾对我的好，想不到，因为现在好的定义变了。因为现在的他对我的好远胜于以往的他。因此，我终于发现，我没有被珍惜过，他爱他，不爱我。

强：你真的会一直这样对我吗？让时间证明一切吧。。。谢谢你！

PS: He just damn handsome in Office wear isnt it? wahhahaa

厚脸皮

2010-04-04T19:33:00.000-07:00

昨天他到我工作的地方接我～

手腕上带了他的手链外加一只戒子。

第二次了，我看了总觉得不答，便随便问来试戴。

他很随意的说拿去，我也很厚脸皮的就戴上了。

而且是吻合的size，不大也不小。

后来他就来了个简讯：

“Dear i meant wat i say... I'll take the ring from u once i found a beautiful ring 4 u... Muackz.."

似乎我们都是不善把甜蜜话语认真说出的，我们都借助手机所给予的勇气将心里话传送给对方。

斗数9天，两个月。

看电影

2010-04-03T20:10:00.000-07:00

好久没看电影了。。。

So.. watched Clash of the titans~~ hmm... Rate? 4/10

I find that is just another action movie, dont like the flow of the story.. Though some cute stuff like riding on scorpion and the genie.. but.. They AREN'T suppose to be cute isnt it???? =P

ya.. so.. If u thinking of watching it.. DONT waste ur money on 3D ya?

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有你陪的感觉真好，刻意的搭错巴士，就为了多陪我一些。

我知道是因为我埋怨没有时间好好一起浪费，

有些内疚，害你已经那么累了还硬要耍赖陪我，

但是心真的很甜，谢谢。

你的放纵，让我更加贪心了。。。

我越要越多，你会转身走吗？

还剩一个月～

2010-04-02T04:26:00.000-07:00

还有一个月就能出国了！！！好啦～只是去领国，马来西亚，但是第一次和朋友去而且是去玩啊！！以前都是探亲嘛～～真的很兴奋（虽然还有一个口头报告要做＝P)

今天本来应该是公定假日，本小姐却卧在家里整天！！天啊！！好啦～我的错，有是最后一秒把报告写完～～但是，还好有报告来消耗我的时间，因为某人又因为酬劳关系去工作了。。。好啦～这样就比较有钱，不会那么痛苦，我知道。只是，我现在周末工作，某人也只有星期天是休息，因此觉得时间好少喔～～常常只是10分钟或20分钟车程的见面时间，好少喔～～可是他说 “Thought time is passive de... Can't be define in any state...” 好嘛～～人家贪心可以吗？难道你不想有更多时间在一起吗？都不回答人家～～～～

天啊！！不得了了！！这样看来，我有一头摘下去，越陷越深了啦！！！！

对咯！死定了咯～～

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漫长的未来，身边的人还会是你吗？

时间虽然不能衡量对你的想念

但时间能证明我暗自在心中许下的承诺

我多想快快地把你这本书读完

才有更多的时间写下属于我们的书

你知道吗？

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Gor.. sorry ar.. steal ur pic.. coz I also like it!!!

Busy Busy Busy~~~

2010-04-01T02:48:00.001-07:00

Alright.. after submission of my FYP I've been a BUSY BEE~~~ As most should know I am now working at Think White aka Jewel Bar at far east now.. For all my Sat, Sun and Mon... Is not a tough job in fact I quite like the job.. Easy to pass time and I am less stress over financial issue since I am working. So... Last Saturday was my first day in TW and I really love my colleague being so nice and understanding and also patient with me cause I keep FORGETTING alot of stuff... hahahaa...

Sunday went to career fair.. quite disappointed as nothing much for me I feel... What should i work as??? I dont know....

Monday was easy to pass... But stupid clumsy me knock onto something on the floor and OUCH.. yeah.. pain... But ok la... And i was so blur and thought the CD player couldn't play when is that i just need to adjust the sound to higher volume.. (I thought 16 is really HIGH le..)

Tuesday tuition... Meet Kar Sng... Play with Enthia and BUSY!!! Cause had an adhoc translation work... Very tight schedule so was rushing till wed morning and got migraine in the end...

Today... Discussed HC 213 presentation with Sum and CAUGHT IN THE RAIN when we went for lunch.. SO HEAVY that the umbrella wasn't enough to protect us.. I was half WET.. Burr.. cold!!!!

Gg for tuition... Hahahaa.. i feel so much of a money slave suddenly. wahahhaa... But at least not a leech.. =)

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快要两个月了。。。

很开心

虽然穷，但是幸福

小小的礼物，都能让彼此感动

这样的穷人恋情

不是人人能了解的～

谢谢你

Working at Jewel Bar AKA Think White~

2010-03-26T04:30:00.000-07:00

Yes!! Tomorrow I am starting to work for my part time weekend job!!! Retail assistant at Jewel Bar aka Think white located at Far East level 3 Near Hanns... So.. If u have nothing to do with extra cash DO come and SUPPORT me.. THe stuff there are really nice though a little ex... But now they having discount up to 50%!!!! SO.. GRAB THE CHANCE!!!

Alright.. I will be working there for Saturday Sunday and Monday... 1pm to 9pm.. So.. Seriously urger whoever in the mood to get accessories to come and find me ya?? THanks darlings!!!

龟爷爷·龟孙子

2010-03-23T23:43:00.000-07:00

可怜的龟爷爷，还有20天才有能力觅食。所以今天便做了午餐和晚餐一次过送给龟爷爷，让他能不会被饿到。第一次做饭盒给他，感觉没什么好吃的，虽然他仍然说他喜欢，可是我还是没有以往骄傲的感觉～～～因为，我真的觉得很普通。豆腐，包菜蛋，玉蜀黍。晚餐，因为没有Pasta，所以用了Spaghetti来取代，弄成了沙律，希望不会太难吃。第一次做啊～～～

怎么突然叫他龟爷爷？因为他今天很开心的说有东西要给我，要我自己伸手进包包里面拿，又形容什么毛毛的。。。吓死我。后来，便拉出了一串龟孙子！哈哈！可爱的小绒毛吊饰，小龟！虽然不是什么贵重的礼物，但是我还是超级开心的！！是龟爷爷送我的第一份礼物喔！！！虽然不是很像做龟奶奶，但是叫你龟爷爷还叫的挺爽的。哈哈哈～～～

这就是那群可爱得龟孙子～～可惜一只蓝色的掉了～希望能找到一个蓝色的来取代。

对了！他还不知道我在背后叫他龟爷爷呢！！哈哈哈～～～

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Day 36

That day.. u shocked me~~~

"When u wanna get this for me??" (pointing to a random ring jokingly while window shopping)

"When u want me to get for u?" (Casual reply but i felt the serious tone)

I was shock.. but your seriousness ensure me on how u feel towards me.. Thanks...

Grad Trip

2010-03-19T21:28:00.000-07:00

Alright... Grad trip is an IN topic now for most of us since we all have handed in FYP and all are free to think about all this.. Some ppl are going Taiwan and Hong Kong, Some are going Japan and Hong Kong.. some just wanna go JB a day trip to eat Seafood and some just don't feel like talking about it since they can't afford.

As for me.. I really been looking forward to it since is like something everyone will do after graduation. Then yesterday Peanut as me... Is it a must to go grad trip?? I start to ponder.. ya hor.. why am i squeezing myself so hard just to go for a grad trip? Is not like a must... just a reward for people who can afford it....

Pp, Sum Sum and I have been thinking where to go for our grad trip.. is so hard.. Cause we are not the HIGH END group that can afford anywhere... Finally we have a very budget plan to Hong Kong.. We were so excited.. Then when i got home.. i started counting... I am going KL with Kar Sng they all and all booked and waiting for the day to come.. we are all so excited about it.. all in for lodging and tickets has already cost me near to $200... Then the Hong Kong trip is $400.. I seriously feel that squeezing money for 2 trips where I can't spend at all when i reach there, i rather just stick to one trip and i dont have to worry that i over spent.

Sorry gals... seriously I am looking forward to go CRAZY with you gals overseas.. but.. I can't afford. haiz... problem with independent poor kid.. here it is...

Worst is my sister is getting married this nov... All money goes to that of course... Mummy been falling sick quite alot recently due to the bad weather.. and money just fly like nobody business... Daddy changing job, taxi driver.. where he will need to take exams and what so ever... all need money too~~~ Right.. So.. How would i be able to open my mouth and ask for money for grad trip???

So.. ya.. sorry gals... not to put a wet blanket but.. PLEASE DONT STOP PLANNING COZ I CANT GO ya?? I WILL BE DOUBLY EMO.... Enjoy your grad trip and take ALOT ALOT of photos for me to see k?? THanks darlings~~~

Yooohoo Great Outing

2010-03-18T02:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's lesson was so so smooth~~ hehee.. so we managed to end on the dot at 730 and move off to find the TKs Gang~~ kekee... We had so much fun!! though didnt get to eat good and cheap food.. but is not so bad one also la~~ kekee... I just forgot what we were talking about mainly revolving around the ideas for Grad Trip and we were Lauhging all the way~~ Really la. i CRIED twice lor~~ lol... see how hard i laughed...

Today is a great slacking day but i have tuition~~~

Now.. hai.. dont know why my parents all so rushy pushy type one... Just sweeping the floor... so kan jiong like they gg out the next moment when my dad is still NOT HOME YET~~

haiz... a bit spoil my mood but who cares~~ U wanna be angry be it lor~~~ i really cant be bothered when i have so many other things to bother about...

Graduation = Fruastration especially when u are poor like me!!! One side i wanna go out and enjoy before work start.. but i need to get a job first before i feel safe to go enjoy coz i wont be that broke when i am back... Others still can get FnM sponsorship or at least Loan.. But.. i doubt i can.. Yet.. again... sum and pei might be able to get S partial sponsor or loan.. and YET again.. I CANT. haiz.. poor me.. still aspire to go grad trip.. Dreaming hor~~~ work hard hard lor... praying that i can work and have enough not to spoil the two gers' mood of a dream grad trip... how i wish money drop from the sky!!!!

现在的心情

2010-03-15T05:12:00.000-07:00

《只为爱上你》 SHE

词：蓝小邪 曲：杨子朴 编曲：吕绍淳

如果说这世界 不够完美不够好

一定是在等我们 亲手给它变得美好

就像爱 看起来 会那么少 一定是

在等我们一起勇敢的寻找一起找到

一片片落叶 为开出个花园   手牵手捱过整个冬天

每只蝴蝶 为了飞   为了翩翩起舞 先做一个茧

最美海岸线 总是要很蜿蜒   才足够让人忘返流连

你的身边 要不是   比天边还遥远 勇气怎么出现

当我终于住进你的心里   分享同一个世界

身后错过痛过漫长情节   都变甜美

只有我了解 这幸福感觉   美得值得去付出一切

能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你  感谢我每滴眼泪

只有你明白 我有多珍贵   好得值得你为我改变

请你继续温柔 交换我 灿烂笑容  一天一天  到永远那一天

Yeh 爱上你有多幸运   像是天使的礼物

我们不要辜负这幸福 一定要更加幸福

如果爱 真的是 那么的少

我们就   一起守护我们得来不易的爱不被打扰

一片片落叶 为开出个花园 手牵手捱过整个冬天

每只蝴蝶 为了飞 为了翩翩起舞 先做一个茧

最美海岸线 总是要很蜿蜒 才足够让人忘返流连

你的身边 要不是 比天边还遥远 勇气怎么出现

当你终于走到我的面前 完成所有的画面

就算苦辣酸甜尝过一遍 只剩喜悦

只有我了解这幸福感觉 美得值得去付出一切

能够遇见你 认识你 喜欢你 爱上你 感谢我每滴眼泪

只有你明白我有多珍贵 好得值得你为我改变

请你继续温柔交换我灿烂笑容 一天一天 到永远那一天

像是大雨过后晴朗的天 宽阔而耀眼

每隔黎明都需要xx成全     往回看每兜一个圈

每一条迂回的曲线   都是为爱上你必须留的伏线

只有我了解这幸福感觉

美得值得去付出一切

能够遇见你 认识你 喜欢你 爱上你

感谢我每滴眼泪

只有你明白我有多珍贵

好得值得你为我改变

请你继续温柔交换我灿烂笑容

一天一天 到永远那一天

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这就是你给我的感觉 ＝）

幸福希望不是假的

2010-03-14T20:08:00.000-07:00

虽然题目看起来有点悲观，但是真的是我想说的。一小撮的好友已经知道了，我有掉入了情网中。不是搞神秘，只是不想说。我已经不是当年那个傻姑，什么事都说的那个人了。

第一，说了若不久就散了不是不说更好？

第二，对像在带有色眼镜的人眼中，应该会觉得怎么又是这样的人啊？

第三，因为我觉得他们很像，我还没有准备好。

等等原因下，我只对少数的人说。

其实，现在我也还不想公开，只因为不想让家人知道。我怕会让我短暂的幸福就此画上句点。他对我真的很好。我所要的安全感，甜蜜滋味，以前所感受不到的幸福，现在都有。但是，因为形象上的问题，我怕。昨晚，我甚至说：“其实，我想你戒烟，有一半的原因是怕我爸妈不能接受你。”而且，这种恐惧，是在我一天天爱他更多点的分秒，越加增加。我觉得我对他有一定的不公平，就因为我开始很爱他了。借口？可能。可是我真的害怕，不知道哪一天醒来发现这一切只是个梦。

一次的失败，让我很害怕。我怕我所谓的幸福，只是梦幻泡影。有时同他见面时，我就很不想离开，只怕我一走，一切就会回到原点，告诉我是梦。很悲观？可能是真的怕了。

佩珮如果看了，又要说我应该重新考虑这段恋情，说我为何才开始就那么不开心。不是不开心，只是太幸福，不相信这是真的，很难相信这真的会发生在我身上。

这是近照。。。

一个月了，还会有多少个月让我算呢？希望是无数个让我算到头发都白了。。。

Happy Anniversary!!!

2010-03-11T08:05:00.000-08:00

Right... Kar Sng and Kar Sng in law is happily married for 4years already!!! Great!!! So sweet and nice~~~ hahaa.. though the cake not done by KSIL but still is a surprise planned by him and really sweet of him!!!! Kar Sng saw the cake and TEARS ROLLING DOWN~~

Close up pic of the cake.. is actually the icing room thingy from bread talk... I designed the cake actually.. kekee.. Fun to play with but not a fantastic cake of course. hahahaa...

We gave her and them a few pressie.. coz her bday also coming on 13th Mar.. so we celebrate together... And one of our pressie is CONDOM. wahhahahaa.. had a hard time deciding to buy the condom cause all gers... SHY!!!!! lol... but really got in handy for them.=P

Great gers night again!!! Love u gals!!! and HAPPY ANNIVERSARY n HAPPY BDAY IN ADVANCE my dear Kar Sng~~~

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昨天我真的很开心，也同他们一样幸福！！！

谢谢你～～谢谢～～～＝）

黑暗与光

2010-03-07T01:53:00.000-08:00

黑暗是当光都不在时才会有的。但是因为有黑暗，才能发现光的重要性。也因为有光才能凸显黑暗的神秘。它们不是对等的，是互相依赖，互相扶持，互相衬托彼此存在的意义的。

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你说：“她们都因为怕，而离开我，所以我现在选择不说。”

我说：“怕？有什么好怕的？你也太小看我了吧！”

虽然我胆子没有很大，但是因爱而勇敢是我一直相信的东西。

你也会一样勇敢面对吧？

一次是巧合，两次是我的使命。

命中注定，我是来照亮你们的世界，为那冰冷的世界加温的。

《入口》

2010-03-05T23:34:00.000-08:00

Inspired by Delfine Heng~

这地方真特别，洁白亮丽的墙让我不自觉的走到了门口。似乎自动式的门，奇怪的从中间上下两扇门开起。往内看，暗暗的、光线非常微弱。这。。。这是什么？怎么踩上去软软、黏黏、温温的。这地，是红色的？不对，似乎是橘红色的。等等，是嫣红的。怎么可能！成了深红色，近乎血色般，是干了的血色。这到底是哪里？这味道！

糟糕！又迟起了。这已经是这个月第十次了。不知道什么时候开始，总是做同一个梦，那即熟悉又陌生的感觉，到底是怎么回事。这困扰了铭峰整整一个月了。他不相信所谓的解梦，因此也没有向“专家”询问原因。

忙完了一天，走在同样的街道上，铭峰这阵子白天被那女魔头上司整得快要疯了，放工又被女友牵着鼻子到处走，晚上又被梦中那女人搞得不能平静的休息。女人，真是男人生活中的香烟，没有抽的时候抽烟的人看起来是超级炫的；有了就成了戒不掉的必需品；抽久了却会丧命！但是，生活还是要过，女人还是会在身边绕。到家了，躺上床上不知道是睡觉好，还是发呆好。

天啊！不会吧！睡着了？又是这里。这次似乎多了些声音。那是，剁肉的声音。好浓好浓的腥味。这地会那么红，那么粘，那么软，不会就是这个原因吧。仔细往内看，原来是间一房半厅的小房子。一眼望去，除了些许泛黄的白色墙壁以外，就是红色的天花板和地板。再往深处望去，又看见那个女人了。她似乎很忙，忙着煮饭吧。空中的腥味渐渐成了香香的美食味。

“来了？怎么还站在那里？你最爱的粥要煮好了。”

她那清脆的声音传入耳中，耳膜震动了一阵，甜美的声音却让我不寒而栗。我最爱的？我们很熟吗？铭峰对这一切，越来越好奇了。一步一步的迈进，铭峰不知道为什么，轻易的闪过了那挡路的小凳子，似乎对这里的一切，他是很了解的。到了厨房，那粥真的很香，入口即化的肉，太顺滑了！可是，他怎么吃都吃不出到底是什么肉。

“小姐，这是什么肉。。。。。”

噢！这么晚了，是谁打电话来啊？已经睡不好的铭峰，被突然来的电话吵醒了。

“喂。。宝贝。。现在几点了？打电话来干嘛？什么？怀孕？打掉嘛！还用问吗？我不服责任？这是我们一开始说好的啊！你又不是第一个。你要生下来可是你的事，不要来烦我！再见！”

凌晨四点钟，铭峰失眠了，不知道是好事，还是坏事。数了第一千零五十三个绵羊时，那粥的香味又来了。但这次铭峰已经在厨房里看着她在准备粥了。她将一块畸形的肉放上砧板，肉没有很厚，薄薄一层裹着那骨头。肉的一端黑黑的，圆圆的，四肢瘦弱的曲成一团。这。。。很像。。。

“等等喔～你这个胚胎刚到，还得加工处理，我已经很熟练了，不会太久的。”

结婚鞋

2010-03-04T06:32:00.000-08:00

噢！我真的觉得我的艺术细胞也太强了吧！！我姐她买了双不错但是挺普通的鞋来当结婚鞋。那天去试礼服时，可能有人提说太普通了，她便想让她的鞋能更漂亮些，就叫我帮她弄。结果？当然漂亮啦！说的当然没有说服力，请看！

改造前～～

改造后！！！

有差吧～～哈哈～怎么做？？就粘上的啊～～什么？不相信是我做的？？当然有个朋友帮忙啊，不然做一天好不好！证据？？？

看吧！！

不容易的说～～～～～

然后啊，又为好友的生日加结婚纪念日做了个设计。。。太美了！！不能上载，礼物送了才能让大家看了～～拭目以待吧～～～

"18th" Birthday!!! wahhaa....

2010-03-03T00:50:00.000-08:00

Right.. once again is my BDAY!!! This year's felt a little bit more special... had a great bunch of people celebrating it for me~~

All started from 28th Feb 2010....

I cooked up some simple lunch for these great ppl below before we went for Bowling session!! Was fun as been long since I went bowling.. Wahahhaaa.. And then... we went to play Pool just there too.. where? Orchard Country Club.. Of Course dearie Enthia came too!! had lots of fun with her around!!!!

Right.. then where is this?? Xin Wang at Northpoint!!! Kekee... We went there for dinner and a celebration that i predicted but still touched.. why? cause of the effort present i guess.. Really.. TOUCHED.. can see my red red eye de!!!

THere are 3 pressie in the box.

1) supposedly card alike thingy.. But is very meaningful to me and mean alot to me!!!

2) a very nice eye shadow set chosen by MCC

3) idea of VON so that i can USE it.. PAD!! at least is what i normally use.. Ops.. makes our relationship like sooooo AI MEI!!!!

This is how the super nice pressie made by Kar Sng!!!

A peek of how it looks inside!

Right.. actual day itself, shi fu actually came to my hse pick me up and gave me a great Bday Lunch Treat at NAIVE. The place looks very ZEN and very Ups... kekeke.. Love the atmosphere and glad that a MEAT lover Shifu ate Vegetarian with me!! Thanks shi fu!!!

Oh~~ ya.. what he playing with is something i love too!! They said it is a symbol of appreciating and some blessing stuff. Supposedly meaningful but is more FUN than meaning that I am seeing. ops...

After which i went to ORchard to meet my darling Pei~~~~

Right.. this is in ION 味园香。。。 Super NICE!!! Cause i had very disappointing 芝麻糊 the night before.. so i said i will help them advertise here~~ HERE U GO~~

Really nice... what Pei ate was yang zhi gan lu.. Nice too!!!

Ard 9 meet Peanut~~ went to watch MOVIE! kekeke.. I spent the day to the fullest right?? wahhahaa... yeah... SHow ended at 11.45 and I was home at ard 12 plus. kekee...

LOVE EVERYONE that made my bday a SPECIAL one.. Thanks ALL!!!!!

PS: What i regretted is nv take photo with Pei and Shi Fu~~~~ =P

In Your Eyes...

2010-02-27T06:52:00.000-08:00

你问我你眼中我看到什么
我回答隐形眼镜
还有一个帅到翻的我
oh no~
我问你你眼中你爱我什么
你总是吊我胃口
故作神秘爱说不说

男生都这样爱耍坏
行为举止挑战我的忍耐
女生才是有够奇怪
心里永远那麽多WHY

In Your Eyes

发现一种东西叫爱
因为爱所以我存在

In Your Eyes

看见生活多么精彩

看着你我神眼离不开早被你打败
其实你悄悄变成我的最爱

My Love Is For You

吃酸撒娇生气耍赖

是你的专利让你来
疼我爱我让我为我

这些小事情让你来
只要让你(我)愉快
就算耍冷下不了台我全都愿意
都是因为爱

我问你你眼中透露着什么
你笑着保持沉默让我期待你的承诺

男生都这样爱耍坏
行为举止挑战我的忍耐
女生才是有够奇怪
心里永远那麽多WHY

In Your Eyes

发现一种东西叫爱
因为爱所以我存在

In Your Eyes

看见生活多么精彩

看着你我神眼离不开早被你打败
其实你悄悄变成我的最爱

My Love Is For You

请闭上眼睛
坏蛋你想做什么(那要做什么)
你的笑奇谋才不看能骗到我

你的眼睛
也累了该休息一下
就让我趁这歌机会
靠着你吻你一下

In Your Eyes

发现一种东西叫爱
因为爱所以我们存在

In Your Eyes

看见生活多么精彩
因为有你才会精彩

看着你我神眼离不开早被你打败
其实你悄悄变成我的最爱

My Love Is For You

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Tomorrow I am gonna be the chef again!! kekee.. gg to market early in the morning to get some nice fresh vege~~~

Kar Sng, KSIL and Dear Enthia is coming for lunch~~ kekeeke... Maybe prepare a bit more for Peanut. kekee...

冒险

2010-02-24T07:05:00.000-08:00

小猫咪再次冒险，探索新的旅途。小猫咪曾被大野狼吓坏了。她抖索了很久，迟迟不知道谁是好人谁是坏人（你是好人～也是个坏人～AHEM!）她这次被一个外星人拉着探险。她对这外星人一点都不了解，但是外星人很照顾她。这外星人有着和大野狼一样尖尖的牙齿，但是比大野狼温顺。这外星人有着和大野狼一样的体毛，但是比较柔软。这外星人有同大野狼一样有这黑暗神秘的气息，但是不多加隐瞒。外星人贴心地慢慢将自己地地方介绍给小猫咪。她虽然害怕，但是因为外星人暖暖地手，让小猫咪感到非常安心。小猫咪新探索之旅开始了。未来，她会面对什么挑战？敬请期待。

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你对我好，我知道。

总是不自觉的拿你们来比较，你也不计较。

你迫不及待将我带入你的世界，

我却刻意隐瞒你的存在。

我不好，但是我开始喜欢有你在身边。

我已经不是以前的我，我不能给你任何承诺，也不想去承诺。

这种不知未来的爱，你介意吗？

我没问你，就让你进入这样的一段恋情，你知道了会恨我吗？

我。。。我变自私了。

我有想过不要对你好，可能以后不会伤到你。

但是，我做不到。

因为我喜欢你对我好。。。

恐论文症

2010-02-22T05:46:00.000-08:00

我的天啊！！我真的真的快要损坏我引以为傲的眼睛了啦！！！我的骄傲！！读了将近二十年的书，我还是PERFECT EYESIGHT就将要毁于一旦了！真的不假！本小姐我还以为我最早也要等到五十没得找的时候，无奈的配副老花眼镜，现在～～～～啊～～～～～要疯掉了！本小姐我最最讨厌就是用电脑看资料，伤很大的～砍再多的树，我都坚持印了才读。现在？？？？我没办法啊～～要改论文嘛～怎么印啊～我可是很有可能看什么不爽一改就改掉整段的也～～～

更让我受不了的是，自从我中二（应该没错，但可能是中三，反正没差～～）“红”水泛滥一遍，让我痛苦得红着脸找医生求救后，大姨妈来的是比播报新闻的时间还准的。这几个月来都没有来找我！！认识本尊的人，当然知道我可是乐天派到极点的人，压力？？？？差点就忘了它的定义了好吗。竟然会让我的生理周期出现如此大的状况，我还在怀疑是否真是压力搞的鬼呢～现在终于来了，但是错错错！！错时间嘛！！！人家星期三要见老师现在是抱佛脚之季，怎么才来找上门，害得我真的是超分神的！！！天啊～～～～～～～

自作孽不可活～～只希望别死得太难看～～～～～

拉着走

2010-02-21T07:49:00.000-08:00

以前明明是一对情人走在街上两条路

现在明明还没有定情走过路障不放手

以前看场恐怖电影片浪费奢侈不奉陪

现在寒冷的电影院里担心受冻温暖我

以前麻将桌前没有我多说一句破口骂

现在同样的情景重现真输了钱笑着付

以前网站上从来无我问他为何他没说

现在你那紧张的样子立即上载无顾虑

以前他虚拟身份单身从不改变无例外

现在你改了还来问我你改不改仍单身？

这次，我很被动。我不想再主动了，因为不想被伤害。

我等，我保持中立，我避免陷入。

但是你，毫无畏惧，一步一步走，一直走。

眼前的黑暗，你似乎一点都不害怕。

我看着你的背影，我迟疑。

你回头看了看我，伸出了暖暖的手，带我一起走。

未来，有很多的未知数。

我们，有很多的不同处。

你，勇往直前。

我，畏畏缩缩。

我怕你同他一样，中途放手。

但是你没说什么，一路一直走。。。

Brewerkz For Nanyang Spectrum~

2010-02-20T07:19:00.000-08:00

Right.. went to Brewerkz today for work (School work) purpose.. I thought there is only a branch in sg.. So meet Shi Xuan at Clarke Quay.. God knows... there are more than 1!!!! Right.. so we chiong down from Clarke Quay to Kallang Indoor Stadium JUST to make sure we are in time for the fun and entertainment.. Nah.. for what we need to get footage on~~

Thanks to the organizing team.. felt really appreciated. They were very welcoming and also cooperating. Despite the fact that we are very NOOB, they really patiently waited for us to be good for the interview and also do what we asked to. Really great ppl. We had 2 coupons for free drinks.. sad to say we both don't drink.. Shi Xuan tried the supposedly nicest for ladies drink Fruit Brew but she also dont really like it. hahaha... we have FREE food too~~ though.. din entice me since i m a vegetarian. wahhahaa...

The comedians were cool and funny though ALL are dirty jokes.. only less than 10% or local jokes. hahahaa... and TJ chose me to make fun of~~ oh dear.. Blame me to be standing right in front of him coz i need to get footage of it. Right.. Was so embarrassing though I suppose he was praising me abt er.. er... my figure? *blushed* At the end of the show, he actually came to me and said "call me.." I just smiled~ I was so caught in a shock that I didnt know what to reply. WHY WHY WHY... why m i always attracting the blacks... I LOVE LOCALs.. Yet no one seems to be attracted to me~ EMO~~ =(

At the end of video-ing, interviewing and stuff, was of course CAMWHORING~~ wahhaa.. Oh.. about that.. I like Johnathon Anothon's joke about HOR FUN!! Ok.. Is another mild Dirty jokes though... wahhaha.. he was saying his favorite spot in Singapore is Geylang... Not because of the red light area not becoz of the prostitutes... Is because of FOOD~~ and his favorite is HOR FUN (WHORE n FUN) OMG~~ i was like WIN~~ wahhahaa...

Really loving this Job.. I hope i can do what I am doing now when i graduate.. Really Fun~

CNY~~

2010-02-18T20:29:00.000-08:00

Alright the whole CNY updates is here....

大年初一

Watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief as mentioned in the previous post.

大年初二

Had a religious gathering and have so much fun.. though food doesn't seems to be enough due to the overwhelming response. But in the end we still able to cope with the crowd and really enjoy the company. Had so much fun.

Seems like Mei zi chairing the thingy.. wahhahaa

Then went Play MJ with TY, HS and her bro. Right.. quite tiring.. AND I LOST.. so sad.. the big winner is HS's bro la.. so sad lor.. but after so long of not playing MJ.. really fun and hope can play it soon again? kekekee.....

大年初三

@Ning's hse~

Right.. Went to Huining house to Bai nian followed by Mark's house. kekee.. Nice nice to meet their parents again.. Never know I can have connections with friend's parents till i grow up.. Din get Shelia along.. feel a bit.. weird though.. but.. i dont know.. not i organized wor.. I just tagged along~~

After which is Kbox Session! hahaa.. Actually dont really gian singing that much nowadays.. wonder why.. Maybe of the Ever INCREASING price of Kbox ba~~~

K session~~ Loves~

Last stop is Kar Sng house to Bai Nian... Enthia baby is SOOOO CUTE.. Love her SOOO much.. Cheery baby indeed. =) MUACKZ. And of course not to forget my Beloved Kar Sng who specially prepared a meal for me despite my special diet. LOVE U ALWAYS!!!!

A proudly taken by me photo.. coz i like the story in this pic~~ =)

Go for those parents kid photo competition shld get something... =P

大年初四

School starts.. have great lessons as they are all my favorite lessons. THough ending LATE.. but still Fun modules...

Met up with Kar Sng, Bling, TY, Flav at Lunar.. HAD LOTS OF FUN!!! wahahahaa.. guess is been long since we all go together after the last day of 2009. Yeah... Great time there with the usual kakis and of course great songs!!!! Heard Colin is gonna be father in may!! CONGRATS!!!!

Din get to see Jai.. CNY and the one having off is MALAY!! hahahaa... guess must be something important ba~~~ =)

大年初五

Tired~~ after crazy night with them really tired... So.. only stayed at home.. do a bit of FYP, being a good daughter preparing a very simple dinner for ma ma since she is sick.. then done up all what i should and.. WEnt out again!!! OMG.. bad hor~ hahaha...

Watched 《苏乞儿》Felt bad... Coz that fren told me it is not nice and i tot he watched already.. I told my sis not nice not watching with her le~~ then in the end i went to watch it myself.. SHHhhh... dont tell her!!! wahahhaaa... alright.. I have said my review in the previous post.. yup... That's it!!!

苏乞儿

2010-02-18T09:11:00.000-08:00

今天看了苏乞儿，有点失望。不是说不好看，只是故事梗概很想《叶问》，镜头间接也剪得太明显了吧！一会儿左右各站一个，一会儿就同站一边。这也只是其中之一而已。而角色方面～～～周杰伦。。。感觉是怕不卖座而加的。他对我而言有点无谓角色的感觉了，那光头白须翁，更是废～～～我想这戏应该让周杰伦过了武打戏瘾了吧～他也超爱现的。

总而言之。。。我给打6/10。

痛

2010-02-17T23:37:00.000-08:00

昨天听到了一首曾经很喜欢的歌，萧亚轩的《吻》。痛，没有很痛。但是，伤感还是有的。

“说好决定要努力忘了啊～为何还有泪停在脸颊。你身边是否还是那个他，取代我在你醒来吻你吗？”

我发现，因为一段失败的爱情，我不知道也不懂得什么叫信任。我还会懂得信任这两个字的含义吗？还有办法再相信任何人吗？我不知道，我没有信心。

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新年做了很多事，与朋友百年等。但是，今天很懒。。。有心情再放上网吧～～

Percy Jackson and the Lightning theif

2010-02-14T22:23:00.000-08:00

Right.. My 1st day of new year I went Cine to watch a movie~~ FIrst time in my life~~~I actually went out on CNY. hahaa.. Everywhere is SOoo empty.. coz we were both late.. in the end couldnt catch the earlier movie and hence watched the 19:10 timing. Right.. we have almost 3 hours and NOTHING TO SHOP!!! YESH!!! Luckily the company isn't that boring and we were walking along the empty orchard road.. then realise ALOT of "Foreign Talent" around lucky plaza area... Was wondering why is there the crowd and realise is THEIR HOLIDAY too!! wahhaha... Right... Finally is 19:00 and off to watch the MOVIE~~~

Right.. Is really not that bad~~ I feel that is something like Harry Potter Genre and i love it~ kekee.. And the mysterious Greek God Legend makes it more interesting.. Poseidon and brothers.. Demi-God and MERDUSA!!! Oh man SHE IS THE MOST FREAKING THING I WILL WANNA SEE ON MOVIE.. why??? I HATE SNAKES!! Alright.. i FEAR snake.. so.. yup.. Luckily she only makes up around 15% of the movie? wahhaaa...

Right.. And i LOVE daughter of Athena... Forgot her name.. Ops.. Why?? HER BLUE BLUE EYES.. so memorizing!!!! Big and CLear... Woot~~~ Nice~~~

Overall rating: 8/10. Worth watching. =)

天啊～

2010-02-11T22:33:00.000-08:00

真实的，今天和PP，AY透漏了些些新近况。本来不是很想说的，

因为不要犹如往常一样，说到好像什么都有，最后又是一场空。

真的是又中毒了。

烦。

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剪头发了！！！又回到可爱路线～哈哈！

晕头转向

2010-02-07T16:07:00.001-08:00

现在真的越来越排斥用电脑写报告。可能不比写得那么痛苦，但是看得我晕头转向，超级想吐的。以为是累了，躺在床上，却不能好好休息，脑袋瓜总是无法关机。真的是痛苦！！

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又一样了，没变。

可笑的事，发生。

同样的人，笨蛋。

傻瓜角色，继续。

Out in the SUN!!!

2010-02-07T03:03:00.000-08:00

Right.. Before the Sun thingy, yesterday sent beloved friends aka juniors aka "extended" family members off at the airport. They went to Australia for further studies. Though is just less than a year.. but... without them.. life gonna be a little different. We have the same dream, same beliefs and can say is grow up spiritually together.. I am missing them so much already. And Seeing YR cry... I almost couldn't control.

After which, Olive, Melvin, Meizi and I went lunch together and had a serious talk. I really din expect myself to say what i said.. was quite stuck as the session was unexpected but I cried.. so suddenly not knowing why at first but tears just came rolling down. Is the feeling of helpless. Right.. Melvin, do consider seriously and hope to see our wish come true.

BACK TO THE SUN!!!

Alright.. For the sake of TV practicum.. one of my module this sem which is SUPER interesting but time consuming... 1st time in my 4yr in NTU that I went for Surf and Sweat event.. And... I DIDNT REGRET!! oh dear.. it is SO FUN!!! If not I have other stuff to do, I might really join Magdelene for their game~~~

Alright, we took videos and stuff on the Surf and Sweat event and I felt like a REAL camera man and a REAL new worker lor.. Is SO FUN!!! I wish i can get the edited Video and actually post it in my blog or even on FB. kekee...

After some real work, took some random photos with Sum Sum and Xiao Yan.

Sum sum loves me!!!

After which, Xiao Yan was saying that the Casino is available to go for some viewing purpose, so we went to explore. It was quite cool but there is a Levy of $100 to go into the Casino so we couldnt get in of course. We just walked around at the Universal Studio. IT WAS AWESOME!! I love the escalator portion that was SO DAMN COOL!!!

Had a great day but is Damn tired.. Back to FYP~~~

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不经意想起，一样吗？

今年的运程，真的吗？

闷闷的心情，你有吗？

一切的一切，成真吗？

IT"S A SCAM!!!

2010-02-05T00:37:00.000-08:00

Oh please!! it is a total scam i feel!! The sch of E... offered online saying that there's this survey doing thing that might earn us up to 20bucks.. so poor me went to sign up hopefully wont be too difficult and earn that peanuts home... God knows. when i reach there, they show us video clips on poor ppl out there waiting to get cure and save by the MFS and actually tell us that we will actually be offered either 10 or 20bucks and is decided by A DICE!!! Even number is 10 and Odd is 20. OMG!!! and what.. we are ask to VOLUNTEERINGLY donate part of what we will get to the MFS and stuff. WHO after watching those poor ppl out there will DONT donate anything?? And moreover there is this STAR donor thingy that actually say will label u as star donor if 80% of what u getting is being offered as donation. OH PLEASE!!! And still ask me if $100 were to be donated how much is the amount that should be marked to be given the STAR donor Label. OH PLEASE!! Pissed as I am feeling is a scam, i Replied in the survery:

"$o. If a person is a millionare, $100 donated will be like our 10cents. so to them is NOTHING. But some really kind soul out there giving $8bucks when his pocket money is $10, he is MORE WORTH the STAR then anyone else la!!!!!" Really PISSED!!!!!

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你扰乱了我，但有似有似无。

真的讨厌这样的我

学不乖

一直掉入同样的黑洞

坏小孩！！

2010-02-03T22:26:00.000-08:00

谁？我咯！！一直拖也不知道要拖到什么时候～～今天！搞定！

星期一和宁一起出去～超开心的，虽然走得很累。哈哈！买了一件美美的格子连身裙。超兴奋的。但是不能穿啦！要等过年穿。＝）同时，也买了一件无袖上衣（halter neck blouse)，也是很漂亮喔！

装可爱

办公室霉女？哈哈！

两款不同路线的衣服～美吧？好啦～是属于杨贵妃的美可以吗？这些都是在Far East Lavender Closet 买的。虽然不是很便宜，但是时超爱的！！舒服嘛～～～

后来，就不断的自拍我们的照片

星期二就如同往常和Kar Sng 与小宝贝出门～～没干嘛～～就和小可爱玩了整天～听她无邪的笑声，真是有感染力。宝贝长大了～

永远爱你！！！

心情

2010-01-27T22:20:00.000-08:00

心情怪怪的～～～

昨天坐了辆说被嫌弃但是我却觉得超炫的车。可能是因为我对车研究不深，或是没有车吧～但是我超喜欢那宽宽的位子，体贴的坐毯（因为是防晒的，若太热不会烤屁股～呵呵！），只不喜欢他播放的音乐。哈哈！我喜欢一点加速的感觉，虽然新加坡是超级多交通灯的，但是还是能时不时感受到那瞬间加速的感觉～呵呵！

就是它！哈哈～～

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海派甜心要完了～～～下集就是大结局～～～有点失落，但是幸好有《就想赖着你》接下去～哈哈哈！被小猪的《爱不单行》电到了！！！

大出血！！

2010-01-26T07:03:00.000-08:00

昨天很开心！！好久没有和杨口羊口羊（meh meh）一起出门了！！！

我们从乌节路走到武吉士，逛到脚都要烂了！可是还是有说不完得话，听到她最近的幸福甜蜜真是为她感到开心。怎么说，在感情这方面，对她是有小小的愧疚。虽然她可能已经忘了，但是我还是忘不了，所以一直希望她能很幸福很幸福。听到甜甜的点点滴滴，安心、开心、窝心。＝）

走了整天，没买什么只买了她的生日礼物，她想了很久的一件裙子。后来，到Roma Deli吃晚餐。

Ning and her Pressie~~

Our FOOD!!

Never take photo together~~ So... hehee.. put together!!!

之后，我们就到武吉士街去走走看看。没有可以要到“老爸”那里去看耳环，碰巧看到“妈咪”剪短了她的秀发，打招呼变成了看新货！！！结果～～～

对！！！口袋破大洞！！！！但！！很漂亮喔！！！＝）

生产部编号9124

2010-01-23T04:54:00.000-08:00

今天本来是和大嫂与橄榄（Olive) 一同去血拼的！！！！但是，怎知道我那突然很有主妇样的姐姐突然做起了黄梨塔。一份材料就花了她整个上午。我看不过，着手帮帮。最后。。。。拖得我门就没得出了。当然，就成了生产部的编号9124 。。。为什么是9124？？因为我是大牌912，家中成员排第4的嘛～～呵呵！！

其实，没去也没有很后悔啦！因为，没血拼，我就不会出大血！！！

黄梨塔做好了，就是包装的时候。说真的，我真的觉得我是很好的包装人员吔！！我竟然能包装的如此完美，真是太了不起了！！哇哈哈！！

大嫂！！对不起了！！虽然是在你出国前最后一次出门，但是还是爽约了。年要到了，希望你能谅解。＝）

解内衣比赛？？？

2010-01-22T00:59:00.000-08:00

http://www.zaobao.com/photoweb/pages1/woman100122.shtml

天啊！！天下事无奇不有！！世界有那么多的天灾人祸，人们还是为了钱，有时间去搞这些怪活动！而这是为了车展而搞的。真是无奇不有。但是，这样的噱头越成功，不就越代表人们的腐败吗？而且，能快速的解内衣有什么好骄傲的呢？这不就更明显的凸显你人格上的污点吗？？？真是不明白～～～

新的春天

2010-01-21T03:40:00.000-08:00

好友星期二回到新加坡，昨天便见了面。不知道为什么，隐藏已久的泪水又再一次的浮出水面。说着说着，眼泪不知何事又从眼眶中不争气的掉了下来。很久不知道哭是什么感觉了。我以为我已经不懂怎么哭了。

好久没有聊天了。我们聊啊聊的，不约而同的说了“我老了！”。身边的男生年龄似乎越来越小，单身的我们，还会找得到下一个春天吗？不知道。

她说：“妙～你这两年似乎发生了很多事。你长大了。”

从学妹的口中听到这些字，感觉怪怪的。但我只回答：“我还是想做个小孩。只要有哪个他让我能只是个小孩。”

我们才二十出头，都似乎担心自己会永远一个人走下去。真是奇怪。

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三天前，Bling问我，你对那个男生有兴趣吗？

我竟然回答，“我不知道，我只能说我不讨厌他”

她又问：“那有可能吗？”

我说：“不知道。还是一句，我只能说我不讨厌他。”

不知道从什么时候开始，那梦幻的我对身边的一切都少了浪漫的氛围。

人经历了不同的是，就会说出不同的话吧。

你们对我而言，是个磨灭不了的历史、伤痕、记忆。

我对你们而言，可能只是个过客。

但是，没有这段过去，我也不会是今天的我。

我变了。

其实我还蛮喜欢现在的我。

没有那么执着，没有那么傻。

更实际些，更会保护我自己。

谢谢你们～让我成长。

老大～想你啦！！

2010-01-15T19:38:00.000-08:00

好久没有上课的感觉了～～今天虽然是预期的迟到，但是课还是上的很爽！大清早的起床，竟然没有在课堂上睡着！！！那睡魔是辞职了吗？

才第一天，我就在想～我会怀念在南大上课的日子～也太～～～～不知道要用什么词语来形容～～

今天还第一次一个人上课！！商业法律～还不错上呢！！同样！！没睡吔！！！呵呵！！

学妹昨天说：“老大有问起你哦！！！”

我（超兴奋的）：“真的吗？他问了什么啊？”

学妹：“问你最近还好吗？问你是不是交了男朋友？”

我（呆掉）：“为什么会问我是不是交了男朋友啊？”

学妹：“不知道～没问。可能是你fb上的照片变美了？下次帮你问吧～哈哈”

天啊～老大是怕我找不到还是真觉得我有男朋友了啊？他怎么可能会去看我的FB?

老大～～～我的心还是爱你的！！！在我离校、绝望之前～～你放心！！我还是爱你的！！

呵呵！！！脸红了啦！！竟然在这里来个爱的宣言！！哈哈！！！

Sherlock Holmes~

2010-01-09T00:29:00.000-08:00

Went to watch Sherlock Holmes... Love it!!! 9/10

It is very engaging and really impressive!!! Sherlock must be very knowledgeable to be able to spot all the tiny winy stuff and of course... goes to the author~~ Really Impressive!!!

I quite like the analysis part where before he hits someone to fatal he will analyse what to do what are the reactions and how to counter till he wins.. Very different stuff that I see and is Nice~~~

Holmes.. Very ragged... but so MAN!!! hahaa.. he is good la... seems confident but glimpse of fear and unsure about his charm. hahaa.. I like it~~ Very good~~ and Watson is indeed a very loyal close fren. Initially doesnt like the wife to be... Mary.. but after that i think she is quite supportive to his husband and respect his frens too... so Yeah.. UPS~

Those who hasnt watch.. can consider~~ =)

A Day with Pei!

2010-01-09T00:18:00.000-08:00

The whole holiday have been wanting to meet for dinner or what so ever~~ Finally the chance~~~ So weird to wak up early Just to go out to meet her!!! actually is just to catch 11am klunch!!! wahahahahaa....

Right.. Pei say she saw spiders and webs at my blog and ask me to do sth about it~~ so.. here... i m writing!!!

kekee....Our legss~~~

went Jco for drinks and donuts and ROT!!!! hahahaa....

Pei Introducing the Mango Freeze~

Cam Whoring for her blog~~

My turn!!!

Had fun!!! After that came home and rot~~~

Mark's Belated Bday Celebration

2010-01-09T00:08:00.000-08:00

Mark~~~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! (3rd Jan)

Right.. we met up and went to Loving Hut for dinner.... Didnt take photo.. quite a pity!!!

But we went to Macs to play MONOPOLY DEAL~~ NICE NICE!! super nice to play la~~ and we got addicted!! wahahaha.a.... So much fun as we missed each other so much sia~~!!!!

Nice game!! Good to kill time!!

Samuel Seriously Playing the Game~~

Two of us Happy Cam Whoring~~~

At the end we played till 11 then went home.. Mark companied me home end up when we reach hougang station no more 88!!! Then Super nice Mark walked me home and took cab home from my place~ Thanks Dear~

Last Ladies Night 2009

2010-01-08T23:27:00.000-08:00

Yesh~~ Last Ladies night 2009.. so we went Lunar and had fun!!!

The blings combine power again!! hehee.. so fun la!! With Flavian and not to forget my beloved Mei hui too~~ kekee.. Super long nv talk to her le.. have a nice chat!! We all went CRAZY!!! Photos speaks louder than words~~~

Kar Sng Get me to pose like MAo~~ wahahhaa.. QUite funny photo.. I like~ hahaha

L: Lunar!!!

Memory of Last Ladies night 09~~!!!

Full Force BLINGS!!!

Meihui and I~~ LOVES~~

Base!! Colin!!!

Jai~~ Guitarist

Full Force Photo!!!! FUN!!! (Got an extra head though)

25th Dec

2010-01-08T23:24:00.000-08:00

Back in chalet at near to 7am.. I wake the two love birds up make them eat breakfast and they refuse!!! so... i told them a joke abt Ming cai forgot to off his head light and we got to push his car for him.. they laughed hard but slept still... right.. so i sleep too!!

ZzZzZZZZzZZZZzzzzzZzzz

OMG!! IS 1330!!! then we happily have our super COLD supposed to be breakfast lunch and went back SK to bring DINO to swim!!! kekeee... Dino had LOTS of fun and she is SO SO ADORABLE!!!!!

right.. din take photo as we were taking videos... kekeke...

Afterwhich had a Xmas BBQ at Hougang for SKY Xmas event... I found it quite bad la... coz we din have a xmas celebration like we used to have. So... not as cozy lor.. But still... we talk we laugh and I was DEAD tired!!!!

Reach home at ard 11 i think... and of course~~ ZZzzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzz

FT Gang New YEar Eve outing

2010-01-08T23:15:00.000-08:00

Alright.. Suppose to write on xmas first.. then memory fails me put in the wrong one.. so.. shall continue with new year eve first~~

31st Dec 09 went out with the FT ZH Gang (ZI HIGH)... Attendance were namely WF, WM, IO, Mei Zi~~ Olive went too~~ but just to buy gift for Da ge n Da sao~~~

We went to watch CHIPMUNK!!! SO CUTE~~~ i like la~~ super nice nice nice nice nice~~ though i nv watch chipmunk part 1 but i still can get myself into the pic of what is happening and is super duper nice!! Thumbs Up!!!

Chippattes are so cute!!! "All the single ladies all the single ladies..." kekekee....

Right.. then went to walk walk a bit at 313 and wonder why is it call 313.. yet to find out for Olive ar~~ wahahhaa... then Irene was so so so packed in schedule and left for her next party. WM , WF, Mei Zi and I went to have dinner at Roma.. and the super not kan jiong WM finally show a bit of kan jiong-ness and realise he has a date too!! so.. After dinner at roma and WF meeting his xin huan.. WM left and WF need to go home Email his god.. so Mei Zi and I walked ard and bit and went home in BUS!!!

Right.. as u know if u read the previous input... I was so so tired and not enough sleep... so in the bus mei zi was trying so hard to make me talk and not dozed off as a msg time can send me to la la land.. then we talked all the way home...

Reach home and Poof~~~~ I reached la la land~ hhahahaha

Here to clear the DUST~

2010-01-08T20:47:00.000-08:00

Right.. Pei is complaining that my blog is dusty and growing webs~~ alright... is WEBsite ma~~~ ops.. lame.. alright i saw alot of crows flying pass~~~~ Is not that I dont wanna blog... Just.. TOO MANY EVENTS for me to blog~~ i shall go one by one and Pei can slowly read k????

Christmas 2009~~

Alright~~ as those we know me well will know... Xmas eve is my beloved god daughter's bday!! Since her ma ma nv give her a BIG 1st month celebration as it was at Chinese new year period.. She decided to make her 1st year bday a big one~~ Went to her hse the previous night to do last min preparations and of course.. our nice nice nails.. sad to say.. we were too busy so din actually take photos....

24th Dec 09 woke up at 10 am just to go market to get ice box for the cakes and drinks.... we were still quite late but manage to get 1 big big de~~~ then went back home play with Enthia for a while then went out again~~~

we went to hougang mall to get a dvd recording disc as Kar Sng manage to get a video cam (FINALLY) to video her cutie little dino~~ =)

RUsh and Rush and finally we are at the chalet preparing and getting ready~~ Though in the end the crowd wasnt big and we din really have a happening count down~~ but was still fun!!! we had gift exchange and got pretty pretty hp accessories from Kar Sng, a precious moment ornament from Bling , a body lotion from MCC and a water bottle from bilabong from Janson.

After which went to Lunar with Bling and played till early morning as I din wanna DISTURB Kar Sng and Kar Sng in Law~ wahhahaa....

of course~~ Lots of pretty pics~~~ But in Kar Sng cam~~ so only can see in FB~~ wahahaha...

>>>> Next entry~~~ Xmas Day~~~

我疯了～

2009-12-18T09:52:00.000-08:00

我疯了。。。

真的。。。

不知道怎么解救。。。

也不是很想解救。。。

疯了。。。

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跟踪！！你再跟踪～～～

有阴影了～～

不要！！！别再来了！！！

好烦啊！！！

你这只很大的苍蝇！

走！！！

中毒·黑洞

2009-12-17T06:34:00.000-08:00

有没有人告诉过你，在黑洞的那一端有根刺。当你徘徊在黑洞边缘时，你会在不自觉的情况下被那根刺扎到。这一扎，可是没有痛楚，没有感觉，但，会让你中毒。这毒没有很大的症状，但是会一直在你的血溢中一直顺着血流往身上的每隔部位留下脚印。

说来也奇怪，这毒是很特别的。它不会让你痛苦，不会让你寂寞，不会让你难受。它只会让你比平时开心。就因为这样，你便会越陷越深，中毒也会越来越深。

说了没有很明显的症状，但什么毒都多少会有些症状。

中毒症状：

1）喜欢以往不喜欢的娱乐。

2）不想睡。

3）时间到了，不到那该报到的地方就浑身不自在。

4）勇气加倍。

要报到的地方叫黑洞。

大家都知道，黑洞有很强的吸引力。若你徘徊在黑洞边，还中了那毒，可想而知啊～～～

若你有以上症状，请不要告诉我，因为我不是医生，而医生应该也没办法做些什么。因为，对他们而言你是正常人。可能是缺乏睡眠，可能是胃病，可能是头痛，可能是酒精中毒。他们是没有办法查出这黑洞边那毒针的毒。

你只能向上帝祈祷，让上帝赐给你力量。

不然，就加入堕落天使的行列吧～

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He is the first to remember me, the first to talk to me, the first.. the first the first..

I always die on the first... Guess maybe I m born on the first...

Right.. I hope I wont take it seriously, i cant!

拥抱

2009-12-01T19:46:00.000-08:00

拥抱是很神奇的一个举动。

它有抚平人们紧张、激动、悲伤的心情。

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我不知道发了什么疯，突然很想要有个紧紧的拥抱，让我知道，我还有靠山。

我不喜欢一个人的感觉，我甚至讨厌。

我看起来坚强，甚至有人说我是强悍型的。

我不是！真的不是！

长得大只点、懂事点、能干点，不代表我能一个人这样备受压力，无依无靠的走下去。

有时，我好恨我自己。

为什么？

为什么我就不能像我外表一样的强悍呢？

我为什么不能要那么的脆弱又害怕被发现自己的脆弱呢？

有谁？谁能让我有勇气的在你面前流露出我脆弱的一面。

不知是诉说我的脆弱，而是面对面的流露出，毫无保留的流露出这一切。

谁？？

你在哪里？？

New Kids~

2009-12-01T06:48:00.000-08:00

Right.. this year is so so so much of a tuition year. Normally my holidays were spent on temp jobs but this time round, TUITIONS. Right...

Today started on 2 new kids. Pri 1 gg Pri 2 and another gg K2 kid. Wow.. BROTHERS!! so can you imagine how chaotic is it?? Hahahaa.. actually not as bad as I expected as my story telling skills are good enough to keep him entertained. And i think the big brother loves me. Hahahaa.... And i didn't know stars work for BOYS too. ahhahhaaa....

They loves drawing.. Thinking of getting them to draw something the next time round. Woohoo~~~ First time teaching the younger kids.. 2nd time actually but that didnt last very long. But.. I starting to like to teach young kids. They are so much more innocent and cute. And i really cannot get angry with them. Hahahaa... Busy turning to both attention seeking kids every 10min and POOF! 2hrs Up! hahahaa....

Right. Tiring day but guess is a fruitful one..

Hope my dad recover soon.. as is really tiring for mummy and me. ahhaahaa.. ops... But i still will take care of my daddy no matter what. KEKEE...

Saturday~~~

2009-11-28T09:42:00.001-08:00

Right~~ today is saturday and Since i m cooped up in my house for 3 days i DIE DIE also wanna go out today. So i asked Olive along... then.. I know she loves Movies la.. so.. we went to watch movie.. Christmas carol....

Rate: 5/10

The show is just another xmas show with not bad animation but when it ends.. u will have the first comment of.. "Just like that ar??" So.. nth much lor.. If give me another chance.. i will choose to borrow dvd from fren to watch it or what la...

After that we walked down to orchard from The Cathay...

This is the cutest Xmas tree found in .. Ion.

Walked along orchard and took some photos of the lightings and stuff.. Love the tree outside paragon.. nice~~~

Then.. of course cam whore-ing...

Took in Ion Toilet. kekeke

Candid shot. but not bad wor.. keekeke

THe most xmas feel Photo.. kekeee

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Wei said in Fb that i too picky.. not true lehz.. i also wanna find a good man and have a yi kao.. but.. no one attracted to me.. what can i do??? Serious lor!!!!

不是要求高，

是真的没有。

爱只是个字，要找到懂得爱的人，那字才变得有意义。

Photos~~~ PS: Requested by Pei~

2009-11-27T06:48:00.000-08:00

Alright.. Pei miss me SO SO SO much that she wanna see my latest photos.. here it goes~~!!!

Also with her request.. come some older photos too~~~sequence is oldest till latest

kekeke...

This is outside Lunar there's this nice nice chair~~

The QUEEN~

In Lunar toilet like we din wear anything. hahaaa..

New corselet... ehz.. wont wear that much..so.. dont dream of seeing me in it~ kekee

Eskibar~~ Cool!! Cold and when i talk~ GOT SMOKE!! wahhahaa.. Mist mist.. keke.. not smoke. =P here it goes.!!!

Right.. this is at lunar toilet take one.. Dont understand how and why.. SO SLIM N PRETTY RIGHT? ops... but still fat lA~ =P

Exams???

2009-11-20T08:33:00.000-08:00

Alright.. exam is on monday, and i have yet to really study!! OMG~~ yeah.. not in any studying mood. I just.. dont know la.. dont feel like doing anything la~~ I just wanna slack and i just wanna wanna... do anything else but studying.

Alright.. my sis ROM le~~ yeah..Did i post any photos on it? NEVER? ok ok.. here it is...

those who knows next question will turn to me and ask.. "when is ur turn?" OH well. WHATEVER~~ pls la.. u will know when it comes why ask?? And i have totally NO clue when will mine be~~ Like chinese says.. 八字都还没有一瞥！！！ like i dont want.. is DONT HAVE....

la la... recently.. dont know.. not emo.. quite happy.. playing with dear ger ger, shopping with great Kar Sng, Clubbing with Von, chatting with unknown ppl in tag for entertainment.. so.. quite rubbish.. quite aimless.. but.. i just want it to be that way before my life turns.. turn into something i dont know what is it~~~ haiz.... emo~~~ yeah.. suddenly.. hahhaa....

dont know what to write le~~ haiz...

我相信你是存在的，

我相信你会出现的，

我相信。。。

但。。。

你在哪里？？？

如果我的朋友都找到了他们的“你”

那。。我真的会很孤独的

我会变成可怕的老姑婆吗？

我。。

我。。。

我。。。。

《女王驾到》

2009-10-31T03:55:00.001-07:00

“女王驾到还不快立正站好，神魂颠倒～～～”

Right~ yesterday went crazy madness again~~~ Found out that Rebel actually cost cheaper before 11am. So we went in right before 11am. Before us was a group of youngsters? haha.. dont know. But there was this girl who was stopped by the bouncer in front and called to a side. She looks old enough to me, but she was rejected the entry. They actually checked her finger print (VISUALLY with bare eyes) against the one on the IC and rejected her entry. Wonder why.

Then since is Halloween Eve, everywhere was quite fun with Halloween feel, so we decided to go around see see after we got the chop and settle our stuff. We walked down the street and saw Lunar Bar, a place we heard of wanted to check it out and we are ALLOWED hahahaa.. It is a nice place, Super COMMUNIST. hahahaa.. cause Mao Ze Dong is EVERYWHERE with all the Cheena paintings with alot of paintings of women body. Woohoo~~ then we heard nice life songs and was quite a good high atmosphere.

Then Von got Alexina to walk from BQ to CQ just to take PHOTO~ OMG.. hahahaa.. and he REALLY CAME!! hmmm (Alexina... are u... er... something.. er... von... LOL) anyway... then we talk cock sing song outside Lunar then took some photos and oFf he went to HTHT with his emo fren.

We went back to Rebel and Shake out the FATS!

Nothing much till we actually went back to Lunar and the songs were surprisingly nice. The life band is good, after that were followed by lots of RNB songs not chinese one anymore. hahahahaa.. We were at the 2nd level (Cause we saw Chao Guo Hui gg there so Von urged us to go level 2) then we were like the only lively group la~~ The rest is like sitting down, talking... not alot dancing. First time saw LIVE POLE DANCING... woohoo~~ but they are quite.. er.. like not really enjoying dancing. Maybe bored le ba~~ so I conclude that we are BETTER dancer than them. HAHAHAHAAA....

Alright. we have a few photos taken here and there. So.. updates of pic.. Normally by von. hahahaa.. soo... Alex have a few pics too.. kekekee...We shall wait for the photos...

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世界都被我踩在底下。

我是女王。

无敌的女王。

上台，随着音乐摇摆。

一双双色胚子的眼睛，

顺势的往上看。

定格，停止。

没有人能把目光从我身上移开！

女王的魅力，

无人能比，

无人能抗拒！

哈哈！

女王！

我的别名！

《孙悟空后记》

2009-10-28T04:16:00.000-07:00

孙悟空修成正果成日变得无所事事。原有的“皇冠”也因为成了仙而取下了。孙悟空在天庭不断的往凡间看。凡间有许多天灾人祸，但是他什么都不能做。他着急时，大声的往人间喊着“小心！”在人间也只不过成了雷声。他气！他就是气！那好大抱不平的个性，让孙老无法好好的当的无忧无虑的神仙。人间的苦，他是看得到但帮不了。因此，孙悟空到了皇母娘娘那儿请她让自己能下凡救世。皇母娘娘总觉得这孙悟空一点都不定性，若下凡间，还会记得回天的过程吗？所以，皇母娘娘总是不答应。

鸦片战争、中日战争、第一次世界大战、第二次世界大战，凡间的苦是接二连三的来。但是，孙悟空也只有看的分。他急嘛！！就是急啊！就在一九八六年的某一天，他受不了了！

“皇母娘娘不让我去，我就自己下去！只要从这一一跳，她想把我追回来也就太慢了！”

孙悟空就这样真的一跃而下凡间。

皇母娘娘看他那么冲动，为了让他还能回到自己的身边，便将那已被孙悟空遗忘的紧箍咒又拿了出来，随着孙悟空所去的方向再扔。

“哇！哇！哇！”

“这小女孩真可爱啊！她好好动喔！真是逗趣！”

女孩叫德恩尼斯，她很聪慧，学什么都快，就是没什么耐心。她在个很受保护的环境下成长，虽然生活不属于富裕，但是还是过得很开心。她一生最与众不同的是，她从小就是素食者。她不动荤食，也不能喝酒。她的人生就有如尼姑一般有戒律的束缚。渐渐地，她长大了。她个性爽朗，是个乐天派。她朋友可是多得数不清。德恩尼斯渐渐从自己温室家庭走入社会，看见其中的苦与乐。

德恩尼斯的眼界是渐渐开阔。她开始有很多的为什么。她很想尝试，但是总是有个束缚的感觉。似乎每当她想尝试些越线的事，她的头就会隐隐作痛。。。

Studious Week

2009-10-25T20:54:00.000-07:00

Right.. Since the sem start i hasnt really been a good student, is either just go sch for company n entertainment, or rotting out at LPS and have good time with Kar Sng, Bling and MCC, Or i will be rotting at home being a couch potato. If not, I will be busy working, working for Prof or working as a tuition teacher. Is a very packed scheduled life yet is nothing about studies when I M STILL A STUDENT. OMG~~ is quite bad actually coz I've just been doing research on the FYP stuff but not reading them. Feeling lousy. Haiz.. I just am not a good student. REally still cant understand why I am where I am now.

Early in the morning went tuition. RIght. i m late as usual. Hardly have tuition at 9am and so I m still adjusting to the timing..(Though almost a year le). Getting tough to teach as I have lots to give yet she doesnt seems to have the capacity to take all. Getting a little impatient as her exams are coming.. As usual, the king is relaxing and all me.. the little eunch is feeling so nervous. Lalalallaala.... then i refuse to go home coz i know I WILL SLACK. So, here I am in NLB now~~~

Right.. Now in NLB should make full use of the time doing research on the interview later or tml. But I cant find anything on the interviewee later and I am not in the mood for anything else. SHIT. All the way blogging here. Right.. is 11.57 and I am meeting PJ at 1pm. SO.. 1 hour for me to do my own research. GOOOOOOO~~~~1200hr sharp.

《上妆》

2009-10-22T08:15:00.000-07:00

护肤是很重要的。在上妆之前一定要先搽上防晒、润肤霜等。之后就是现在最热门的BB膏了。那可是好东西，能掩盖瑕疵、防晒、滋润等。薄薄的放上一层。漂亮！再来，为了让脸上的颜色较自然些，我会上一层粉底，接近肤色的粉底。好！基本的粉底就搞定！

接下来，由上到下一个个来上装。先是那弯弯的眉毛。说眉毛，还真是没毛。可怜的眉毛地带，不知是缺水还是什么的，总是空地一样。没法子，只好慢慢的画上，希望能看起来自然些。眼睛是最麻烦的。今晚可是希望能艳压全场，可不能在眼妆上逊掉！眼睛可是灵魂之窗，女人不都是靠它让异类们上钩的吗？我也行吗？小心翼翼地将轮廓搞好。夹夹眼睫毛, “睫毛弯弯眼睛眨啊眨”。。。好，现在就是大家说的“媚眼武器”上场！首先是睫毛胶，然后得吹一吹，慢慢随着眼睛地轮廓粘上。。。我。。。这是哪里？

哈哈～终于能出来透透气了。憋了二十多年，最近才能出来呼吸新鲜空气。眨眨眼！亮丽地灵魂之窗，今晚是我表现地时候了！干！她也太俗了吧！这里应该再浓点，香水喷多点，这衣服？天啊！是人穿的吗？活在那儿个年代啊？今天要露哪里呢？哈哈～～太完美了。再怎么漂亮的脸蛋、装扮，也得有我来完成才能撩人些。今晚，我就是主角！我是女王！我就是神！

"....love love love love.....crush crush crush crush...." Woohoo~~~

我扭动、摇动、跳动着，自由、疯狂、无拘束。放松就是这样！狂野地放肆着久久不能自我地灵魂。这感觉真是只有“爽”能形容。我要所有地男人败在我地裙下！我要所有女人看到我都自叹不如！奔放吧～～

好热～装似乎渐渐溶了，我好像看到很多双眼睛盯着我，我在干嘛？三点了？？？我。。。我得回家了！

悄悄地、小心翼翼地将钥匙取出，轻轻地不想惊动任何人。大家都熟睡了了吧。还好。是卸妆地时候了。眼睫毛慢慢地退掉，似乎有个声音很不愿意地在呐喊着。是谁？我今晚又做了什么？我。。。我。。。我。。。先睡一觉，起来再说吧。

Near Earrings~~

2009-10-20T07:36:00.002-07:00

Yesterday spent like i have a million in my bank man~ hahahaa... I went to bugis street with Bling and MCC. Mcc really has lots of frenz sia... Bought earrings at a particular shop.. Woohoo.. in the mood to buy so i m willing to spend. Not cheap i still think is worth it. Here it goes....

ALright.. some prob with rotating.. still getting used to my com k?? so.. bear with this..

this is on the right ear

this is the left one.

《双》

2009-10-16T20:47:00.000-07:00

白天：T

夜晚：D

白天：大学生，好孩子，大姐姐，好榜样

夜晚：堕落天使，疯狂舞者，冒险家

火，好烫、好亮、好神秘。神秘为什么能用在火上？因为有种说不出的吸引力，虽然知道会烫伤，还是很想看看火的中央是怎样的。

飞蛾是我的前世吧。我还是存有它的个性，明知山有虎，偏向虎山行。

毁灭会是我的终点吗？不！那不能发生。烧过一次的飞蛾，转世不会再死在火中，而是蜕变。自在的在火中遨游。

夜里有魔咒！它没有把我变成灰姑娘，而是成了疯狂舞者。跳吧！唯有这样你在能发现另一个自己。疯吧！唯有这样你才能得到解脱。忘了吧！唯有这样你才能开心。伪装吧！唯有这样你才能保护自己。魔咒一念完，疯狂舞者摇晃着、蠕动着、诱惑着。开始了！

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

Right~~ had lots of fun again last night. Though ended with some unexpected episode I m still in one whole piece. hahahahaaa...

Went to meet Huining, Shelia, Mark and Samuel. Seems like everyone are gg through tough times. Everyone are gg towards the next stage of their life. Everyone. Started off quite solemnly like a super adult gathering. No loud laughters, no complains, no agitations, nothing. Everyone were so cultured. Then after dinner, went to Hermitage Cafe run by Mark's cousin. Was a nice cosy place though a little small but it really has a good ambience to chit chat. We opened up more and guess talking things out is still the best way to let out your unhappiness.

Sam, Ning, Me n Mark.

Shelia, Ning n I

Shelia wasnt in the previous pic as she left earlier.

The whole cosy night was followed by a wild night at Rebel with Von. hahaa.. My siao kiao Clubber Bling bling. kekkeee.... Right.. i pushed my limits praying that my parents dont scold me. Right. I started of clubbing with curiosity and von say can BURN FATS. So.. I love dancing n I went. Now... I m all hooked up in Rebel as the songs were nice the Dj is good and the crowd was fun too. Guess the company that you go with will determine the fun of the clubbing session ba~~~ My stupid lousy phone though has 5.0 Mega pixel but.. SO LAG~ took so long to take our photo.. Lucky there is a guy with a good camera phone and took a nice pretty pic of us for us.

Tada~~~

ZiRca n ReBel~~~

2009-10-15T07:09:00.000-07:00

Alright... Yesterday was another wild night.. Been playing alot lately.. ops.. hahaa.. But I have never been hooked up with any club but here!!!!! Omg!! is so damn fun and we were all so damn high. Even a person like me who cannot drink also like a drunkard. hahahaha... so funny.

The bling bling gang took LOts of photos... hahahaa... 2 Hot Chicks with a Hot MAma... kekee

The Sexy Look:

The Kisses:

Funny Faces:

My Big Big Eyes!!!

Woohoo~~ All thanks to MCC who helped me with the eye make up. She is so so pro la~~ So pretty~~~

My fren's fren came join us later in the night and he is the only guy in our bling bling gang.. He is good with flirting sia.. and he really can flirt with anyone sia.. i nv will imagine a guy come n flirt with me until he did. Wooo~~ Felt good of course.. though i know.. he just doing it for the fun of it not really because i attracted him But still.. Thanks for the effort yeah? hahahahaha...

FUN!!!!!

Weaklings!!!!

2009-10-11T08:27:00.000-07:00

I really getting quite impatient with the weakling around me!! Oh please you are like 5 yrs older than me, getting married and what? I have to give in to you, hear your pitiful story saying how bad you are being treated at work, how we always "yuan wang" you, misunderstand you!!! Whatever you say, lay on the bed and everything is everyone else's problem~~~~~

Yes... talk talk talk... now still tell me whatever stuff.. Like i wanna hear! I m DAMN PISSED with you and U dont even sense it!!! STUPID!!!!!!!

Alright, doctor say you "wei lao xian shuai" so I must treat you like an old woman do what i can to help you? COme one man~!!!! I M HAVING A CRACKING HEADACHE AND SOME OTHER STUPID PLACES ACHING, did I say a word? Just to make sure mummy will get me to do what she need me to n not take it all alone when she is having so many body problem I cannot say a single word about my own problem since you are so INCONSIDERATE and just know that YOU ARE FEELING UNWELL! Oh yeah... so wonderful.

REally sick to see weaklings around, ya.. one box is heavy, work 9 to 5 is tired.. whatever... And worst, guys all so stupidly fall for all those weaklings.. what gers like us are too strong too man. RUBBISH~ PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!

Right, we stay in the same home, same environment, same family status, N YET!! I am "forced" to take up alot of responsibilities because of ur incapability. YOU KNOW WHAT IS CALL TIRED?? SERIOUSLY MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY TIRED??? YOU KNOW HOW IT FEEL TO FORCE UR TEAR BACK TO UR EYE!!! YOU DO NOT KNOW!!!!!!! THEN STOP SAYING THAT I DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!

I am doing alot of "backstage" work as I don't like to entertain people that I just can't bring myself to talk to. BUt you?? All the "good girl", "decent lady" labels ALL OVER YOU.. and what I get? Wild, witty, rebellious... oh well... yes yes... WHAT U ALL DONT KNOW IS THAT THE ONE THAT IS SUPPORTING THE IMPORTANT PEOPLE AT HOME IS THIS WILD, IMMATURE, REBELLIOUS, INDECENT BRAT.

SO STOP LABELLING BEFORE YOU ACTUALLY KNOW THE WHOLE PICTURE!!!!!

(Right... not saying that there are ppl labeling me now.. just... right.. grudges from the past)

Right.. enough of rumbling... end...

Split personality?

2009-09-26T10:21:00.000-07:00

Been having a very ehz.. busy? i dont know how to explain life.

Love it? Quite. Yet find that is quite... quite... weird...

Felt like having split personality. I can be super hiong and chiongster like nobody business having lots of crazy fun and doing stupid things, wearing skimpily (not very since i m FAT) ...

then the next day, i'll be like a super duper good daughter, religiously super committed and do lots for what I can, wearing prim n proper clothes with nothing much expose.

one day talk nonsense,

the next talking adult language.

one day dreaming to have big house, branded goods, lots of money.

next day telling myself, being simple is a fortunate thing.

sometimes i ask myself, which is me? But... i cannot get an answer coz both are me. Just that a me in different spot different situation will react differently automatically.

how come i m so so different for both situation? why? i dont know.

maybe ... there isnt any different. Only location is different. Maybe i m the same. Just that i tot i m different.. maybe...

Time Traveller's Wife

2009-09-18T03:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday watched Time Traveller's Wife. I won't say it is SUPER DUPER NICE! Because that expression does not give the feel of the whole show. It has a very complicated plot, but is a simple love story. The director uses simple daily life changes to tell the sad but beautiful story.

Time Traveller's Wife : 没有大场面，没有轰轰烈烈的情感，只是淡淡的说出了一段凄美的爱情故事。。。(My comment on MSN)

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Today aren't feeling that well. Din meet up my prof again. Hopefully he is not angry at me. Haiz.. FYP... FYP... dont know... just not very into the mood of doing anything.

Went partying with my friends. Picture speaks louder than words.

The Thorn Among the Flowers

Ladies in the House

Pretty Babe, Hot Mama, Pretty Pig (LOL)

Best photo of the Day:

This?

Or this???

Can't really decide. What do u think??

好久不见

2009-09-06T08:33:00.000-07:00

超级久没有上线了，没有太大的起起落落。

说平淡，也不对，说无聊，也不对。

可能就是没有什么让我想记下的事物吧。

见了，再聊。

不见，再看。

空。

色？

。

上身不由己

2009-07-30T02:08:00.000-07:00

新的剧,也将是我今年看的第一部.错过了《S城市》,希望着、期待着。
海彬！！！加油！！！

8月6日-8月9日

有我的偶像Danny Yeo!!! 杨君伟！！！

JF Report

2009-07-14T06:56:00.000-07:00

Right.. hasnt been doing much over the weekend but tried to eat less of course. Ate salad instead of meal too... Though is real hard to control coz i always feels hungry. hahaa.. but then still alright.

I think i start to love walking.. though i dont have a proper pair of shoes. Yesterday didnt go swimming nor exercising, stupid me left my stuff at michelle's house and off i go with them in derrick's car to lavender. Poof~~ I am stuck there as i dont have money nor ez link card. hahaa...

So today I walked all the way from my hse to Michelle's hse.. somewhere near Rivervale plaza. Took me around 45min to reach her hse. Alright lehz.. not that far and i start to love walking... I mean is nice to walk in nice windy weather looking at ur neighbour hood and stuff... woohoo~ too bad i dont have camera...

That's all for today.. Hope that it will really work~~ I wanna slim down soon~~~

JF Project Day 1

2009-07-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

Alright, Actually started from yesterday. I wanted to swim in the afternoon but i slack so evening i walked all the way down to Sheng Song to get dinner ingredient for ma ma and walked back. 45min to and fro. Woohoo.. 1st work out. Then after tuition I walked from SR area back home. Work out 2. hehee. Nice..

Today morning I went swimming, though nothing remarkable just a 11laps but is a start right? Follow by a salad lunch. Little mayo just to make it look like salad. haha... after which came home register for my mod and off to NLB for research. On the way there a bit hungry.. super light lunch compare to the past, so i bought soya bean drink with one slice of pan cake that last me till dinner. Came back mummy is supportive, only left 2 spoon of rice with soup and veg. But today dont have much veg, pumpkin and fish left. Fish is fried.. but is my only so call proper meal of the day so i finish everything. Ate fruits too.

Tml will be 2nd day. Got Olive to go Gym with me. YEah I must make it happen this time round!! Jia you!!!

No More Photos of ME

2009-07-08T09:12:00.001-07:00

Right~ No more photos of me will be updated be it on blog or on FB... Though Michelle will always update hers.. I shant tag myself anymore.. Unless enthia is really Cute..

Why no more? Till I can slim down and be presentable on photos I dO nOt wanna see my own photos anymore. It is so so so so sad to see that I was much slimmer in the past n now!? Like a big TOUFU face.. REctangular and UGLY!!!!!! FAT FAT FAT

Hate it!! But it is really so hard to slim down.. I need to do SO MUCH to slim down yet there are ppl out there need to do SO MUCH to put on weight.. haiz... WHY?? UNFAIR LA!!! The whole slimming thingy got to start ALL OVER AGAIN! I swear I must do it once FOR MYSELF and do a good one~~ I need to.. FAT is not allowed in this world... no... no............

Haiz.. why so agitated? No one actually come straight to me and say "YOU ARE FAT" though.. only a kid. That was hurting enough but I was like heck caring it... Then today.. I dont know what courage I've got I actually went to weigh myself!! OMG!!!!!!! CAN YOU IMAGINE SEEING SOME DISGUSTING NUMBER SHOWING ON THE WEIGHING MACHINE??? I can act as the real life 200 Pound Beauty le lor!!!! Sian~~

Friends out there PLEASE DO HELP me... If You see that I am gonna eat some sinful stuff STOP ME!!! I must slim down!!! NO MATTER WHAT!!! argh~~~~~

JIA YOU!!!!

新“发”现

2009-07-01T04:29:00.000-07:00

新的发色呈现。。。。

知道我的就懂，我是想做就马上去做的人，今天就跑去修头发，结果还上了点色～～～

结果～～～

不知道为什么，总不能上载照片～～

红红的头发～～不能见人～～～

Though it's been more than a year~~~

2009-06-23T01:38:00.000-07:00

What more than a year? Leaving him for more than a year... yet Jolin's new song triggered all the memories... If anyone who doesn't know my story.. just that song.. it explains very well.. Maybe that's why i fell for the song instantly when I heard it.....

【妥協】歌詞

你總愛編織謊言
我負責配合表演

所有改變只為了進入你的世界

這情節重覆了一百遍
才發現是你的心太野

你劃定楚河漢界
我不能輕易犯規

所有時間都是先給了你優先權

不自覺愛到不敢冒險
成了你的魁儡一年兩年
才看見我有多狼狽

愛到妥協
到頭來還是無解
抱著你不讓你飞
历史不斷重演我好累

愛到妥協
也無法將故事再重寫
你递下最後通牒
我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一個人睡
我不想再為你掉淚
我了解不會變
不再徘迴開始自己的明天

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W7z3d-lDdLg&feature=PlayList&p=E6A7D27F598A378D&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=14

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W7z3d-lDdLg

That's the MV, a part where the guy half way through using the com, he went out and saw the girl reading the com, came back and blocked it using his towel.. Though not the exact thing happened but.. similar... very... very...

Wanted to highlight the similar parts.. went through a few times.. ya.. ALL.. haiz... teared again... When can I really walk out of it? I don't know... ...

BUSY~~

2009-06-17T09:35:00.000-07:00

Hasn't been blogging for quite some time... anyway, blogging only for my own memory purpose not alot ppl visit I suppose. hahaa...

ALright~~ Been busy with telemarketing, translation, tuition (not so busy le) and sometimes help out my poor kar sng at her shop. Telemarketing is quite fun but yet at times just feel sucky. You know.. the worst thing is to get scolded twice in a roll.. woohoo~~ that gets u down at the bottom of ur mood to call again.. hopefully shifu will clinch some deals and give me a good pay~~ haiz.. yet to receive my first pay.. how to ask him? shall see ba~~~

Translation job is not as easy as expected. Tired!!! eyes dropping out.. changing n changing and changing.. Hopefully this one is not the last assignment I need more income!!!!

Tuition drop to just 2? So.. nth much...

Went out with Kar Sng n Baby Enthia~~~ Coz just us.. so cant take a photo of the 3 of us~~ just either 2~~ I mean either Ger ger with mummy or gan ma~ haha..

Sweet little baby~~~ 5.5 months le~~~
Aren't this photo sweet~~ I LOVE ENTHIA~~
This looks like she took the pic herself!! OMG~~ Enthia ger is so CLEVER!! =X

Fat??

2009-06-04T07:49:00.000-07:00

Tuesday met up with dear hui ning, mark, shelia and samuel. We planned for a dinner and chatting session though end up went to K box. ahhaa.....

Alright, i was a little late but as usual.. our dear ning was the latest.. I was shock seeing her!! SHE SLIM DOWN ALOT LA!!! k.. from her info is 10kg! OMG!! I have no determination at all for that but she made it!!! Haiz.. then she said is becoz of some ostrasizing stuff... Oh well.. the world and their idea abt fat ppl... I heard her story and I was damn pissed!! Why on earth must treat we the fat ones differently? arent we human? arent we customers? arent we.... I dont know.. I just hate it... Like we want to be fat? like we CHOOSE to be fat? alright .. maybe part of it coz i m too lazy for work out.. but... but... IF I HAVE A CHOICE i also want to be the same like anyone else.. pretty like anyone else!

That reminds me of a topic I was discussing with Kar Sng n Kar Sng in law... she was talking abt one of her frenz. I've seen her fren's photo and was impressed by her confidence. She is big in size and she really just wear what she wants not thinking about how ppl look at her. I looked up to her very much... then she seems to have an illusionary taiwan celebrity bf and an affair.... Half way through the conversation and Kar Sng in law was saying this, " To think of it.. we also must put ourselves in her shoes, she is already 28 and all her frenz are either married or happily attached. Of course she would also want to be like you all right?" I kept in silence for a while.. then I thought.. ya.. I totally understand how she feels and what's the problems with guys out there? FAT = No No for gf? Then you cant stop us gers for saying that you all are 肤浅... Oh well.. we can say all we want and in the end things still are the same and I.. will still be single forever.

Jie was commenting some time back.. "Hey.. You n M so close, why you nv ask her to intro some guys to you?" I was thinking... HELLO!! I am not so old that I need to get intro to guys just to get myself a bf k? Have then have lor.. dont have whatever!!! But.. seriously.. looking at sweet photos in fbs and what you have... I admit.. I am jealous.. But so?

Back to tuesday gathering...We had dinner at Roma Deli then we move on to K box... WOOHOO~~ it was a great night at K box.. wow!!! We all enjoyed ourselves and had some photos.. lazy to upload now.. shall upload again some other times.. haha..

tt's it..

心梦

我需要对我自己好一点

久违了

寂寞寂寞就好

深思 ---- Marina Barrage

痛，有情、友情。

面具

神圣一天，结束了。

活在不知什么之中，等待。

他打给我了！！！

爱情证书，希望能看见

给你的信

心烦

忙、盲、茫

压力

未来，我要抓着你！

成长·挣扎

失去心中的火

人生·工作·想

近来还好～

累

发霉了！！！

200th Post~

工作的第一天

日子

最近心情很糟

Job Hunt~~

随性创作

KL trip 010510 to 040510

气！！！

《黑白配》

看清楚

甜蜜的滋味

厚脸皮

看电影

还剩一个月～

Busy Busy Busy~~~

Working at Jewel Bar AKA Think White~

龟爷爷·龟孙子

Grad Trip

Yooohoo~~ Great Outing~~

现在的心情

幸福希望不是假的

Happy Anniversary!!!

黑暗与光

《入口》

结婚鞋

"18th" Birthday!!! wahhaa....

In Your Eyes...

冒险

恐论文症

拉着走

Brewerkz For Nanyang Spectrum~

CNY~~

苏乞儿

痛

Percy Jackson and the Lightning theif

天啊～

晕头转向

Out in the SUN!!!

IT"S A SCAM!!!

坏小孩！！

心情

大出血！！

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解内衣比赛？？？

新的春天

老大～想你啦！！

Sherlock Holmes~

A Day with Pei!

Mark's Belated Bday Celebration

Last Ladies Night 2009

25th Dec

FT Gang New YEar Eve outing

Here to clear the DUST~

我疯了～

中毒·黑洞

拥抱

New Kids~

Saturday~~~

Yooohoo Great Outing

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